To Be Horribly Unclear

New Job!!!

2008-10-16T10:41:00.003-04:00

A little over 4 months ago I was let go of what I thought was a very stable job. Little did I know that the economy was crumbling down and affecting everyone, including me. Many people are having worse times than I am so I obviously feel very lucky and greatful that I was finally able to find a job and a good one at that. I have gone back to retail. People will say that maybe it wasn't such a bright move to go back to retail but amazingly enough that despite the economic problems our country is going through, I found the one job that I don't think will have any problems. Video games!! People can barely afford to buy gas to get to work and yet people are buying video games, video game systems and video game accessories like someone stocking up before a hurricane. It's in a very busy mall that fortunately is very close to an airport and many hotels so the majority of the traffic that comes in are tourists. South American tourists to be precise. So they want to bring back all the new technological wonders we have to offer that may not be available to them there like the newest blackberry or even a Nintendo Wii.

On another note all is well on the family front. My beautiful and pregnant wife still gets the shaft from her family on occasion and it's horrible to watch it happen and not be able to do anything about it other than comfort her and let her know that I'M always going to be there for her no matter what. It sucks to watch her mother show obvious favoritism towards her oldest from another marriage over her first born to her second and still going marriage. What's worse is that she doesn't even see that she's doing it even when told that she is. I guess ignorance is bliss.

Sorry, went off subject again. My son is doing good. I'm trying to savor these moments before he's born and plan to continue to do so this time around as I didn't do it so well with my first born. I still haven't been able to scan some of the sonogram pictures but I will. Just trying to get settled in my job and used to being on my feet all day again.

New Movies Update!!

2008-07-31T07:27:00.001-04:00

Hello all. Since I am very attached to the world of hollywood, always following every bit of news on any upcoming movie that's coming out, I figured there are a lot of movie fans, like myself, out there that maybe isn't up to speed with hollywood. So I decided to post any and all info here. Let's get started:

Austin Powers 4: As I understand, I have not seen it, The Love Guru was not well received and I have read that Mike Myers is going back to this franchise to possible revive his career, even if a little bit.

I am a huge fan of the Austin Powers series but this may be pushing it. I have mixed feelings about it because the series was pretty much at the end of what I call the "pop culture" era. In my opinion, whatever pop culture we have going on now is...for lack of a better word, crap. To risk doing a 4th sequel risks damaging this franchise. Here's hoping I'm wrong.

There is not much info on movie plot other than it'll be in the perspective of Dr. Evil and his son Scott played by Seth Green and their relationship.

Terminator : Salvation: Now that is one bad ass looking Terminator. This is a franchise I'm happy to say can be brought back again because of the space between each movie so it seems fresh.

It seems that Christian Bale is working on all 4 cylinders since he's managed to always be in a movie every few months or so whether it's a blockbuster hit like The Dark Knight or in a much smaller role like the Machinist (great movie to rent by the way). He will be playing the pivotal role of John Conner, leader of the human resistance in the post apocalyptic world we've been longing to see.

I have not been able to find out if Arnold Schwarzenegger will be making any kind of cameos but they did however recruit Roland Kickinger, a fellow austrian playing a T-800 Terminator. Roland Kickinger has played the Governor himself in the Biographical/comdey/dramatic story that splits between when Arnold was training for the Mr. Olympic '74 and when he decided to run for Governor in '03. Roland is very much built like Arnold during his bodybuilding days and does a pretty decent job acting like Arnie but it remains to be seen whether he's pretending to be Arnie pretending to be the Terminator.

My only concern is that the movie is stated to be PG-13 which in my opinion may limit the movie a bit but after seeing The Dark Knight, I may be wrong. Terminator: Salvation in theaters May 2009.

Evil Dead 4: This idea has been thrown around for a while for years now but it seems that the almighty Sam Raimi who directed the entire Spider-Man series is finally going to bring cult phenomenon the Evil Dead back to the screen.

It is currently unclear whether it will be a remake of the original or if it will be a sequel starring Bruce Campbell.

Alvin and the Chipmunks 2: A lot of people did not fare this movie well and I don't understand why. Sure, Jason Lee's character had moments where he seems to be acting like the original Dave from the animated cartoons of the 80's making him sound a bit cheesy and out of place but that added to the nostalgia.

It seems that it's been confirmed that the sequel is already in the works.

Harold and Kumar 3: Apparently this was always planned to be a trilogy joining other great trilogies like Lord of the Rings, Spider-Man and the Matrix. Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay was just released this past Tuesday and I must say it was a great continuation of the ethnic stoners. It's a bit more raunchy from the original and obviously not recommended to be watch when children are in the house.

The Hobbit: It's been confirmed that Sir Ian McKellen will be reprising his role as Gandalf the Grey for the long awaited The Hobbit. No other word on who will be signing up for the movie, only rumored that Andy Serkis will be reprising the role of Gollum. Unfortunately, Peter Jackson will not be directing it but just producing it with Guillermo Del Toro at the helm. According to imdb.com the movie is stated to come out in December 2011.

I will take a break for now as there are tons of movies I want to tell you about. Let me know what you think.

P.S. Is everyone going to watch and re-watch the Dark Knight?? COME ON!! Let's help it beat the Titanic as the highest grossing film of all time.

34 things I bet you didn't know

2008-07-29T23:31:00.002-04:00

1. Money isn't made out of paper, it's made out of cotton.

2. The Declaration of Independence was written on hemp (marijuana) paper.

3. The dot over the letter 'i' is called a 'tittle'.

4. A raisin dropped in a glass of fresh champagne will bounce up and down
continuously from the bottom of the glass to the top.

5. Susan Lucci is the daughter of Phyllis Diller.

6. 40% of McDonald's profits come from the sales of Happy Meals.

7. 315 entries in Webster's 1996 Dictionary were misspelled.

8. The 'spot' on 7UP comes from its inventor, who had red eyes. He was
albino.

9. On average, 12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents, daily. (This is scary, especially since I have one on the way)

10. Warren Beatty and Shirley MacLaine are brother and sister.

11. Chocolate affects a dog's heart and nervous system; a few ounces will
kill a small sized dog

12. Orcas (killer whales) kill sharks by torpedoing up into the shark's
stomach from underneath, causing the shark to explode.

13. Most lipstick contains fish scales (eeww).

14. Donald Duck comics were banned from Finland because he doesn't wear
pants.

15. Ketchup was sold in the 1830's as medicine.

16. Upper and lower case letters are named 'upper' and 'lower' because in
the time when all original print had to be set in individual letters, the
upper case' letters were stored in the case on top of the case that stored
the smaller, 'lower case' letters.

17. Leonardo Da Vinci could write with one hand and draw with the other at
the same time (hence, multi-tasking was invented.)

18. Because metal was scarce, the Oscars given out during World War II were
made of wood.

19. There are no clocks in Las Vegas gambling casinos.

20. The name Wendy was made up for the book Peter Pan; there was never a
recorded Wendy before!

21. There are no words in the dictionary that rhyme with: orange, purple,
and silver!

22. Leonardo Da Vinci invented scissors. Also, it took him 10 years to
paint Mona Lisa's lips.

23. A tiny amount of liquor on a scorpion will make it instantly go mad and
sting itself to death.

24. The mask used by Michael Myers in the original 'Halloween' was a
Captain Kirk's mask painted white. (Being a Star Trek fan I thought this was funny)

25. If you have three quarters, four dimes, and four pennies, you have
$1.19. You also have the largest amount of money in coins without being
able to make change for a dollar (good to know.)

26. By raising your legs slowly and lying on your back, you can't sink in
quicksand (and you thought this list was completely useless.)

27. The phrase 'rule of thumb' is derived from an old English law, which
stated that you couldn't beat your wife with anything wider than your thumb.

28. The first product Motorola started to develop was a record player for
automobiles. At that time, the most known player on the market was the
Victrola, so they called themselves Motorola.

29. Celery has negative calories! It takes more calories to eat a piece of
celery than the celery has in it to begin with. It's the same with apples

30. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying!

31. The glue on Israeli postage stamps is certified kosher..

32. Guinness Book of Records holds the record for being the book most often
stolen from Public Libraries.

33. Astronauts are not allowed to eat beans before they go into space
because passing wind in a space suit damages it.

34.. George Carlin said it best about Martha Stewart. 'Boy, I feel a lot
safer now that she's behind bars. O. J. Simpson and Kobe Bryant are still
walking around; Osama Bin Laden too, but they take the ONE woman in America
willing to cook, clean, and work in the yard, and they haul her fanny off to
jail.'

The Dark Knight

2008-07-29T07:46:00.002-04:00

My God this movie was just SICK!! It was great!! It was everything I was expecting and more. The movie has passed the $300,000,000 mark in just two weeks. There are a lot of people hoping to see this movie surpass Titanic as the highest grossing movie of all time and I am one of those. I'm not trying to take anything away from Titanic but it is a bit unfair that the movie should get the title as it was put back in theaters a few months after it was taken off. So let's help it get pass this goal, people!! I know there are those out there, like me, that can see this movie again and again. Actually, how about this. For those that see it again and again, come to my blog and say you did. I'd like to see how many people read this blog and actually go between now and the time the movie is removed. LET'S DO IT!!!

I'm going to warn some of you parents about taking your kids to see this. It's a more dark, intense and brooding story as the name suggests, than Batman Begins.

Heath Ledger's performance was exemplary. While some may think that his psychotic actions and behavior are simplistic in nature, you can see it's more complex if you think about it. The movie does not go into the Joker's past and how he came to be. This makes me wonder what drives him and since no explanation is given...it's actually scary. The very story of how he got his "smiley" scars is elusive as he gives different variations of it. While the Joker is on screen, you can feel the awesome yet disturbing mind at work and can't help but think that he has everything he does in the movie planned out from the get go and if anything is improvised it's done so at the drop of the hat without thinking or hesitation. I am saddened when thinking how will they bring the joker back? I'm hoping there is a star out there with untapped talent to be able to bring the same animosity that Heath Ledger brought to the table because that is what Hollywood is going to need. Anything less will be an insult to all fans and should think twice about making the next Batman sequel.

You'll notice that Bruce Wayne is not the center of attention in the movie. You will see the story revolving around Harvy Dent, played by Aaron Eckhart, and his journey to being "the White Knight" of Gotham as well as his relationship with Rachel Dawes played by Maggie Gyllenhaal (my only complaint of the movie). You will see some of the old familiar faces from Batman Begins like Morgan Freeman, Gary Oldman, Michael Caine, Cillian Murphy, while seeing some new ones like Anthony Michael Hall of 80's movies fame like Breakfast Club and Weird Science, Eric Roberts, Nestor Carbonell amongst a few others.

This is definitely a story about someone trying to fight the forces of evil while still being viewed as a Vigilante and as something wrong....not because he wants to....but because it's the right thing to do.

P.S. How about that pencil trick, huh?

R.I.P. Heath Ledger

2008-07-08T17:55:00.002-04:00

I know it's been a few months since his death but I was never able to blog about it.

When I first heard the tragic news both me and my wife were in the gym inside Carnival's Corporate Office and it literally took the wind out of me. I was in disbelief as I heard the words come out of my wife's mouth. What's sad is that he was just getting started and now we'll never see how great an actor he would have become.

I first saw the rising star in 10 Things I Hate About You and have followed his work ever since. It is very sad especially with the kids he leaves behind. I am looking forward to seeing his final full transformation he did for movie in The Dark Knight as the infamous Joker. I will review the movie once I see it for all you Heath Ledger fans.

Top 5 Women I'd Hook Up With...

2008-07-07T16:01:00.003-04:00

I was inspired to do this after an episode of Friends. If you're a fan of the show I'm sure you remember this.

1.)

Jessica Alba. First movie/show seen in: Idle Hands.

2.)

Angelina Jolie. First movie/show seen in: Hackers.

3.)

Rachel Weisz. First movie/show seen in: The Mummy.

4.)

Jessica Beil: First movie/show seen in: 7th Heaven

5.)

Natalie Portman: First movie/show seen in: The Professional

So who are your Top 5 Women or Men You'd Hook Up With?

NNNNNNOOOOOOOOO!!

2008-07-07T15:38:00.002-04:00

Damn Carnival and their high turn over. Unfortunately, much to my dismay, my family and I are being forced back into my in-laws. Reason being since Carnival laid me off and the economy being what it currently is, I have been unable to procure employment. So rather than borrow money to pay this month's rent we have decided to move back into my wife's parent's home for the time being. Our plan is to save money for a few months, probably for the remainder of my wife's pregnancy and then look into getting a loan and getting our own place. The only thing that I look forward to in my in-laws house is internet and cable tv which I have been without for quite a while. Gotta have my Gene Simmon's Family Jewels.

Other than that, it's all good. Things still look good with Regal Movie Theaters and the manager position I applied for. I'm just waiting for the background and reference check to be done and the General Manager said I should be starting this Friday since it's the beginning of the pay term.

Oh, almost forgot. I wanted to put a clip of one of my favorite skits of George Carlin so here you go.

R.I.P. George Carlin

2008-06-25T14:48:00.001-04:00

Almost forgot about this.

I was saddened to hear that beloved comic George Carlin passed away. I'm not into too many comics to begin with but have been hooked to his material ever since. I was going to put a clip of one of his shows but the network here in the Disney resort blocked out youtube.com. I'll put one up once we're back in Miami.

Hello from Disney's Vero Beach resort!!!

2008-06-25T14:16:00.002-04:00

In light of my current job situation I was thinking about not going but since all we were going to do is spend time in the sun and soak in the pool...I thought "What the hell?" I worked pretty damn hard and put up with a lot while working at Carnival.

My wife's parents invited us to tag along to their hotel in Walt Disney World for the first 3 days and then we switched to Disney's Vero Beach resort in Vero Beach, of course. Nice quiet little town. Not a whole lot to do but sit back and relax. We might go and see Wall-E this Friday. I'll give you the scoop if we do.

I got a pretty nasty sun burn all over my face, shoulders and upper back. Not pleasant when I try to switch positions in the middle of the night.

A bit of good news for me I thought I'd share. I went to apply at a Regal Movie Theater near my home but they don't get a lot of business so the General Manager referred me to another location of theirs and advised that he knows for sure they're in need of Associate Managers and associates as well. He gave me is email and told me to send him my resume and I just checked my email and received one from the other GM saying he wants to meet me for the Associate Manager position. Cross your fingers everyone and say a little prayer for me. I'll keep you updated.

When it rains, it pours

2008-06-19T14:50:00.002-04:00

I was just feeling a bit blue about a lot of things and I heard this song today and thought I'd share it with you guys. I could relate to the lyrics. I'll be back later to let you know about my day yesterday...which sucked by the way.

Hey, man Im alive Im takin each day and night at a time
Im feelin like a monday but someday Ill be saturday night

Hey, my name is jim, where did I go wrong
My lifes a bargain basement, all the good shits gone
I just cant hold a job, where do I belong
Im sleeping in my car, my dreams move on

My name is billy jean, my love was bought and sold
Im only sixteen, I feel a hundred years old
My foster daddy went, took my innocence away
The street life aint much better, but at least I get paid

And tuesday just might go my way
It cant get worse than yesterday
Thursdays, fridays aint been kind
But somehow Ill survive

Hey man Im alive Im takin each day and night at a time
Yeah Im down, but I know Ill get by
Hey hey hey hey, man gotta live my life
Like I aint got nothin but this roll of the dice
Im feelin like a monday, but someday Ill be saturday night

Now I cant say my name, and tell you where I am
I want to roll myself away, dont know if I can

I wish that I could be in some other time and place
With someone elses soul, someone elses face

Oh, tuesday just might go my way
It cant get worse than yesterday
Thursdays, fridays aint been kind
But somehow Ill survive

Hey, man Im alive Im takin each day and night at a time
Yeah Im down, but I know Ill get by
Hey hey hey hey, man gotta live my life
Im gonna pick up all the pieces and whats left of my pride
Im feelin like a monday, but someday Ill be saturday night

Saturday night here we go
Some day Ill be saturday night
Ill be back on my feet, Ill be doin alright
It may not be tomorrow baby, thats ok
I aint goin down, gonna find a way, hey hey hey

Hey man Im alive Im takin each day and night at a time
Yeah, Im down, but I know Ill get by
Hey hey hey hey, man, gotta live my life
Like I aint got nothin but this roll of the dice
Im feelin like a monday, but someday Ill be saturday night
Im feelin like a monday, but someday Ill be saturday night
Saturday night __________,all right, all right
Saturday night

Do you have a zombie plan?

2008-06-12T16:56:00.003-04:00

I'm a huge fan of George Romero's zombie flicks. I've had the pleasure of meeting him and he's a humble guy with great vision for zombie stories. Sure, there were a lot of zombie movies made after the great ones like "Night of the Living Dead" and "Dawn of the Dead", just to name a few, but most of those were crap.

Anywho, for many years a lot of people posed the question "What would you do if a zombie infestation broke out?" or more famously "What's your zombie plan?" Well, I'd go straight to a Super Wal-Mart while hitting any gun stores along the way. Sure, most Super Wal-Marts have hunting rifles and maybe some hand guns but there's more variety in the gun stores. Why the Super Wal-Mart beside the aforementioned reason? It has everything you need to wait out the zombies, i.e. food, electronics, toys, beds, etc. Only issue would be what kind of zombies? Are they George Romero's kind, slow and dumb, or the remade "Dawn of the Dead" or "28 Days Laters" version, fast and intelligent. Then you just have to block of the main entrances. Yes, I have thought about this, lol.

So...what's your zombie plan?

Here's an short made by recording a Halo multiplayer match. Enjoy

Update

2008-06-11T16:48:00.004-04:00

I know it's been a while and seeing as I have a bit of free time on my hands at the moment, I thought I'd come on here and see what's up.

I no longer work at Carnival Cruise Lines. I was extremely happy there and very proud of myself since I'd been there longer than any other job I've had in the past. I was 2 weeks or so shy of a year when I was informed the company was letting me go. It seems that the cruising industry is not doing so well what with the economy going bad and no one can afford to go cruising now a days.

It just so happens that I was let go at a very bad time as the owner of the townhome I was living in decided he is selling the place and we had until the end of our lease to find a new home. We did, and we love it. It's much more "roomy" and not a bad price considering how most townhomes in as good condition as ours is in are much higher.

So I'm going on my job hunt. It feels weird to start all over again since I was at CCL for almost a year and after all the trainings and new changes that went on within the company but hey, no reason to look behind and worry, just have to look forward and do what I have to do.

Oh, did I mention my wife is once again pregnant? HA!! When it rains, it pours. Not that we don't want it or welcome it, it's just it came at a bad time, such as it is. I am, however, happy as a pig in sh*t. lol! One thing I love being most is a father, next to a loving husband, and I know that I can do things better this time around as I had to do a lot of growing up to do with my daughter. Plus, my wife has this wonderful and beautiful glow about her when she was pregnant and I'm looking forward to that....amongst other things. lol, the wifey knows what I'm talking about.

And on a last note, for anyone that has any contact with my mother or anyone that could relay the message to my mother, please don't!! Only a select few know and she is currently visiting my brother in Tennessee until next month and I don't want to worry her during her much deserved vacation.

Until next time.

John Rambo.....IS BACK!!!!

2008-01-27T19:50:00.000-05:00

I just got home from watching this great movie. The reviews given by the movie critics were without reason. This movie was phenomenal!! Great story line. Quick and straight to the point. For those that have seen it or will see it will probably say "too much blood and guts and senseless violence..." I don't agree....I mean the main story is about genocide in 3rd world countries and nothing is being done to these mindless psychotics. Maybe by seeing what is more than likely happening in the real word, this will trigger something to be done. Here is the trailer. Give me your feedback on the movie for those that have seen it. Finally this generation will see a real action hero on film.

Just can't catch a break!!

2007-12-09T15:21:00.000-05:00

No, no melodrama going on. Just to let you guys know my lap top is not working again so I have nothing to use to get into that local network I've been hacking into this whole time. I'm going to have to bother my brother until he finally fixes my PC. Plus, that other guy's network is kidn of slow so I'm going to be signing up with Comcast for a low price of $24.99 a month for 12 months. Not bad, huh? Anywho, I'll get back on here when I can.

RIP Kevin DuBrow

2007-12-02T00:56:00.000-05:00

I was really shocked to read that Quiet Riot's lead singer, Kevin DuBrow, passed away. I know I was too young to enjoy the music at it's height but I grew up listening to my brother Pavel's CD collection and I loved everything about 80's hair metal...to be honest I loved everything from the 80's and I wish I was old enough to enjoy the excess. To this day I get a feeling of nostalgia when listening to "Cum on Feel the Noize"....on that note, girlz, rock your boyz, we'll get loud, loud, loud....LET'S DO THIS!!

Happy Holidays!!

2007-11-28T08:41:00.000-05:00

Hello all!! Haven't been able to blog in quite a while since I haven't set up a dsl line in my home to surf the net and whatnot. I am now using my wife's lap top and connecting to someone's network nearby. yeah yeah, I know. So sue me.

As the Christmas Holidays approaches, I've felt the need to come back and start blogging again. This is my favorite time of the year. I love being able to decorate the house, going through my favorite tradition me and wife created of watching 1 Christmas movie everyday from Dec 1-25, walking through the malls and seeing everyone go nuts shopping for their loved ones. It'll be our first Christmas in our first new home. But this year has an added bonus. My mother was out of town visiting my brother in Tennessee and was planning on staying over there until the new year but due to personal reasons I won't disclose here, my mother is back in town and my brother is going to come down here for a few days a few days before Christmas. He won't be here on the 25th unfortunately but I guess you take what you get. I don't know where he will be staying so I discussed it over with the missus and offered my place for him and his 3 kids to stay. I know the kids will be happy because I have all the toys I know they'd enjoy: a Sony PS3 and a PSP, a Nintendo Wii and a obscene amount of games and movies.

In a nutshell, this is what's happened in the last few months. My wife and I were separated for about 2 months, moved in with my brother for about 2 months, got a job at Carnival Cruise Lines, got back with the wife, moved into our first place (conviniently across the street from my daughter's school and huge park), still have my great paying job, and now get to experience Christmas without the hassle of going to my family's Christmas dinner party and walking into a fist fight or something to that extent.

Anywho, I have a few things to do before going to work so I'll catch up with you guys later. I'll leave you with this kick ass video by Spineshank, song is called "smothered"

Life can be ugly...

2007-04-13T00:36:00.000-04:00

life tends to beat you down to the ground and it will keep you there if you let it. Life can be cruel whether by natural causes outside of your control or by something you yourself have done. I can deal with the bad cards that life will deal because I want to think that I am strong enough to take the hits and keep moving forward to becoming a better man, a better father, a better person. Now, what I can't understand is why would I keep creating ill advised circumstances for myself that is just going to end up bad for me and everyone around me. I'm not going to go into details because it's late but just a few days ago I felt so beaten, so ashamed, so distraught, so guilty, so scared that I felt like I would do anything to stop feeling that way and it scared the hell out of me. I felt like I was on the verge of screaming and crying but nothing would come out. I felt like the whole world was coming down on me...felt trapped in a tiny space and I couldn't move. Like I was on a path to self destruction because of my "disease" and I remembered someone once asked me "you've been saying you are going to change and you would do things differently to better your situation but it's now 3-4 years later and you're still making the same mistakes and make the same decisions that lead you to the very spot you claim you don't want to be. If you haven't changed in these last 3-4 years, what makes you think you're going to change any time soon?" That was meant for something else I was doing early on in life and thankfully I have gotten control over that but there is still the one thing I've been doing for a long time and I can't seem to get rid of it. I wish I could point a finger at my family and say "well, they did it for a long time and I grew up seeing them do it so because of them I got corrupted..." or something along those lines but no one is making me do it. No one is pointing the proverbial gun at me and making me do these things. I can see that and I recognize that but only when cornered or scared does it knock some sense into me and I stay straight for some time but I just fall back into habit after a little bit.

I know this has been my first post in a LONG time and I do apologize for the dramatic content but this is something I have inside me that I'm trying to get rid of and I'm willing to do anything to get rid of this beast inside me.

Snakes on a Plane auditions

2006-11-22T04:18:00.000-05:00

this was hilarious so I thought I'd share. The best ones are Christopher Walken and Jack Nicholson...there's even a surprise guest in there by a muppet...

New Language

2006-11-21T01:44:00.000-05:00

Something I've been wanting to do for quite some time now is learn a new language. This decision came to be while I was working at Border's Bookstore. Many books offering to teach a variety of languages. Which to choose, I wonder. Russian, Japanese, Celtic??, etc. etc. Well, I got to know a fellow employee rather well because she was the only other person I knew around my age, younger than me actually, that had a child. Found out she spoke Italian rather well and fell in love with the language. I wonder if knowing Spanish gives me an edge since there are similarities between the two. I had some books that I bought, Learning Italian for Beginners, and got lazy and never actually bothered to pick it up but, and I hate to sound all new age or zen like, I figured with how clear headed I've been lately and I'm on the path to be freed from this hell hole otherwise known as the in-laws house and living a life without making the same vicious cycle mistakes I've been making all these years, might as well learn something new. I also thought it would be cool to learn a new language no other person I know knows. I am having a little trouble figuring out how to go about doing this alone...no teacher to guide and take notes from. Haven't done the "School" thing in a few years. Any suggestions? Well, wish me luck.

Oh, sorry for no updating what I've been up to lately and how goes married life....I have tomorrow off too so I'll probably take the time to do that tomorrow.

Busy, busy, busy...

2006-11-20T02:51:00.000-05:00

Hello, all!! Sorry for the disappearing act...hope I didn't scare anyone. Been busy with work, modifying my car, spending time with my little one, working on myself, etc., etc. So at the end of the day I didn't feel like spending much time on the computer at all but I'm slowly getting back into it...even updated my MySpace profile which I thought I had given up for good. Well, it's late and I have to get up in in about 4 hours to take my boo boo to school so maybe we'll catch up later on today...here's some new pictures in the meantime. I meant to put it on my profile but was having trouble with it...as you can see I've been too lazy to even shave...

Trapt

2006-10-28T18:48:00.000-04:00

It is a momentous occasion for me with my new job and having somewhat of a clear head but at the same time I'm hurting, I'm angry, I'm anxious, I'm tired (mentally/physically), I'm lonely, I'm raging, I feel alienated and it feels like I'll never get to the end of this road.

I can't seem to win. I'm always at odds with everything in my so called "married" life, if that makes any sense. I don't feel like a husband. I feel like a boyfriend that could be pushed away at any moment. It's as if I'm the new generation of husbands that I see and hear about now a days. If we don't conform to what the wive's think is a good marriage then fuck it. I've always thought that when one gets married and eventually have children that that is your new family and it's a priority over anything but it's just not like that here. I want out of this prison. I want to break out of these walls and start new. I don't think I want to continue in this marriage.

I was talking to my mother, which I'm sure you know is a great cook and very smart woman from my brother's post whenever she goes to visit home, and she just made all the sense in the world but there is just one thing I don't think I can go through with and that's sitting here until tax return season and having whatever money we have saved from here to there and deciding to leave her parent's house for good whether it's with or without her. Holy crap, this sux....

Metallica - The Unnamed Feeling

2006-10-27T21:28:00.000-04:00

It seems like there is a funk around. Everyone is catching it and there doesn't seem to be a cure for it. I had already posted my metal song for Saturday but I can really relate to this song so I thought I'd share it with all of you.

Been here before

Been here before couldn't say I liked it
Do I start writing all this down?
Just let me plug you into my world
Can't you help me be uncrazy?

Name this for me, heat the cold air
Take the chill off of my life
And if I could I'd turn my eyes
To look inside to see what's comin'

It comes alive
And I die a little more
It comes alive
Each moment here I die a little more

Then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive
Then the unnamed feeling
Takes me away

I'm frantic in your soothing arms
I can not sleep in this down filled world
I've found safety in this loneliness
But I can not stand it anymore

Cross my heart hope not to die
Swallow evil, ride the sky
Lose myself in a crowded room
You fool, you fool, it will be here soon

It comes alive
And I die a little more
It comes alive
Each moment here I die a little more

Then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive
Then the unnamed feeling
Treats me this way
And I wait for this train
Toes over the line
And then the unnamed feeling
Takes me away

Get the fuck out of here
I just wanna get the fuck away from me
I rage, I glaze, I hurt, I hate
I hate it all, why? Why? Why me?

I cannot sleep with a head like this
I wanna cry, I wanna scream
I rage, I glaze, I hurt, I hate
I wanna hate it all away

High Voltage!!

2006-10-27T21:08:00.000-04:00

I figured I'd put these out earlier since I have to get up early tomorrow so here goes...

Today on High Voltage we have an up and coming metal band that's a mix of Guns 'N Roses and Yngwie Malmsteen....we have Avenged Sevenfold with Bat Country and Seize the day

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
I tried to drive all through the night,
the heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights.
No oasis here to see, the sand is singing deathless words to me.

[Chorus:]
Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

As I adjust to my new sights the rarely tired lights will take me to new heights.
My hand is on the trigger I'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right.
Mental fiction, follow me; show me what it's like to be set free.

[Chorus]

So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today.

Sometimes I don't know why we'd rather live than die,
we look up towards the sky for answers to our lives.
We may get some solutions but most just pass us by,
don't want your absolution cause I can't make it right.
I'll make a beast out of myself, gets rid of all the pain of being a man.

[Chorus]

So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.
I've known it from the start all these good ideas will tear your brain apart.
Scared but you can follow me I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die.

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

Blockbuster Video CSR Employee!!

2006-10-27T21:05:00.000-04:00

Well, it's official. They had pretty much told me I was hired but as a formality we had to wait for my background check to come through. It came in today and everything was A O.K. I have my orientation tomorrow and officially start on Monday. I wish I can express to you how much this means to me because it's officially a fresh start as a "sober" person. Right now it's only words so I just have to go out there and prove myself.

The real epiphany

2006-10-26T22:23:00.000-04:00

I realized that there is no point in complaining like I did in my previous post. No point in telling the story over and over to whoever will listen and make sure the details are understood in hopes you will see that I am right and she is wrong. Because in truth all our problems are as much my fault as it was hers. So I will not go on telling you of every little thing she has done that was wrong. That was in the past and here I am no better than I was yesterday or the day before that. The difference between us is that I recognize that I have a problem, more like a barrage of problems, and I decided that I was going to do something to fix my situation. Make a few sacrifices now so that in the long run I will be better off. If I make a mistake I will be a man and own up to it.

I'm a bit worried at the moment for my marriage. I feel that we have hit a wall that was built long ago and I don't know if it can be brought down. When it comes down to it to me it feels as if we are only here today for all the wrong reasons. Maybe she feels sorry for me and knows that i have no where to go if it ended. Maybe she's simply used to having me around and doesn't want to be alone. Maybe it's because of our little one. I don't know what it could be but I'm afraid of even bringing it up because for as long as I can remember we can't get into a serious discussion without it always turning into a fight. Sure, we can wait until one or the other calms down but once the subject is brought up again it just turns into the same fight. I feel like we're lost never to return to who we once were and feel like it's too far gone for there to be any change.

Darth Vader prank

2006-10-26T18:30:00.000-04:00

Needless to say I'm sure this guy didn't get any for a few weeks...maybe months.

Fellowship of the Ring reunion

2006-10-25T19:59:00.000-04:00

Bittersweet

2006-10-25T17:37:00.000-04:00

I just got back from my interview and I must say that was the best interview of all interviews I've ever had and that's saying something because I've had quite a few.

My interview lasted exactly an hour and ten minutes and that's a sure way of knowing that it either went well or you're hired. We talked about all the changes that's been made since I last worked for them and all the good benefits and bonuses. She was really impressed by my previous experience.

The only thing that scared me for a millisecond was when she said she was still waiting for my background check to come in and it had already been a few days since she sent it in. But then I remembered that Blockbuster's background checks were always a joke...it wasn't exactly a criminal background check...it's weird...don't know how to explain it and more than half the time it never came back anyways because their human resources was too busy doing whatever it is they do.

She told me what my starting pay was going to be, sign #1, and that I have orientation on Saturday. I just have to wait to do the new employee paperwork because the background check hasn't come in yet but if by Friday it still hasn't come in yet then she'd call me in on Friday to come in and do my paperwork before the orientation. So pretty much....I GOT THE JOB!!

The reason I called this bittersweet is because I was scared about the background check but I'm not worried about it anymore...still, until I go in to fill out the new employee paperwork, I'm going to be on edge.

Fucking Determined!!

2006-10-24T19:52:00.000-04:00

I think I might have posted this video once before but I don't care. It's such a kick ass song and it pretty much shows how I'm feeling at this moment.

First and foremost, I finally turned my petition to seal/expunge my record since I have no priors and I got my hearing date with the judge the same day. I have to go in October 31 and this extremely long ordeal can finally end. No more losing good job opportunities because of it.

A lot of places are hiring now with the coming holidays and I'm going to be getting some interviews soon so hopefully I'll get a good offer amongst them all and I'll be working strictly with customer service and merchandising and retail type stuff...no more tending to animals.

GO, SO FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT CONFIDENCE
GO, SO FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, SPIT OUT ALL REASON, YEAH

I'm tired of holdin' up the weight,
the weight of the motherfuckin' world.
What I wanted to do, but just can't wait
DO RIGHT NOW !!!
We could start a little fire just to get in the flame
The type that'll blow away.
I'm speakin' of my 15 minutes of fame
Come on now 1 2 3...

GO, SO FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT CONFIDENCE
GO, SO FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, SPIT OUT ALL REASON, YEAH

I'm flushing the trust of everyone,
stabbing in the back and thinkin' they can break me.
Set my sight can't die until I'm done
MIND ENDURANCE !!!
Never wanted any more than what I deserve,
better bring it I'm takin' it all.
Fuck an inch 'cause I'm bringin' a mile,
It's on now 1 2 3...

GO, SO FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT CONFIDENCE
GO, SO FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, SPIT OUT ALL REASON, YEAH

This fire, is growing, it's burning, deep inside of me.
Focused, driven, certain, the way it's got to be

FIRE, GROWING, BURNING, DEEP INSIDE OF ME !!!
FOCUSED, DRIVEN, CERTAIN, THE WAY IT'S GOT TO BE !!!

CROOKED (No Trust)
LIAR (Conman)
DRUNK WITH (Power)
MENTOR (Taught me everything that I know)

SO WRONG,
WRONG
WRONG
WRONG

1 2 3 !!!

GO, SO FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT CONFIDENCE
GO, SO FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, SPIT OUT ALL REASON, YEAH

GO, I'M FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT CONFIDENCE
GO, I'M FUCKING DETERMINED, YEAH
YEAH GO, SPIT OUT ALL REASON, YEAH

Monty Python-The Pope and Michelangelo

2006-10-24T18:03:00.000-04:00

Top O' the morning to ya, laddie!

2006-10-24T08:34:00.000-04:00

Such a great way to start the week. Been kind of down because I REALLY want to leave Petsmart and I haven't had much luck getting interviews but as I said on yesterday's post I have one tomorrow.

It was such a beautiful morning today. Don't get much cold fronts down here in Miami but we got one this morning and it was great. About 60 degrees and there was a bit of wind so it did feel much colder. I love cold weather. When you live in Miami all your life with the blistering heat you tend to go the other way. Thought my little one looked too cute all bundled up so I thought I'd share a picture.

She was very cheerful this morning. Had a nice little breakfast together at her school. I had her croissant and OJ, she doesn't like either one, and she had a big bowl of Frosted Flakes with chocolate milk. Such a nice peaceful morning with my little one.

Job Interview!!

2006-10-23T19:46:00.000-04:00

I'm really excited about this because it's a really good chance to get out of where I am right now. I'm a bit tired of having to look after the animals in my store. They live a better life than I do and that simply won't do. They get their bedding changed, water twice a day. Fed twice a day. Get sliced oranges and chopped carrots. They get cc doses of medicine whenever they are sick courtesy of the onsite vet office. Screw it. I'm tired of animals.

I have a job interview at Blockbuste Video. I'm going to take it because it's a chance to start fresh and work in something familiar at the same time. I used to work for Blockbuster...3 times actually. The reason I have my foot in the door is because this particular Blockbuster is literally 2 minutes from my home. About 20 minutes walking distance. They see us there almost every day and know us by name. The store manager loves when we come by with the little one. Always gives her balloons. The rest of the staff always gives us recommendations for the latest movies or shows without us having to ask. It's almost like Cheers.

So I asked one of the employees if he happened to know if they were hiring and he told me "As a matter of fact, we are. We need a lot of people for the next few months and since you've already worked for Blockbuster before we'd keep you permanently after the holidays. Go apply and speak to Naydine, I'm almost sure I just mispelled her name, after you apply." I applied and had to wait a week because she was out of town. When I went to return a movie this afternoon she was there and first thing she told me when I walked through the door was "I have good news." Turns out my application went through and was green lighted...this means I did good....and she wanted me to come in this Wednesday for an interview. So, pray for me, cross your fingers, wish me luck or whatever it is you believe in.

Too early

2006-10-23T07:06:00.000-04:00

I feel really bad for the missus this morning. I don't know what happened exactly but somehow our alarm clock got pushed ahead by an hour. So my wife got to work thinking it was 6:35 a.m. when it was actually 5:35 a.m. So she's been up since 4:15 a.m. when on Monday's she normally gets up at 5:15.

2006-10-22T12:06:00.000-04:00

Here's Skid Row with 18 & Life. ENJOY!!

Ricky was a young boy, He had a heart of stone.
Lived 9 to 5 and worked his fingers to the bone.
Just barely got out of school, came from the edge of town.
Fought like a switchblade so no one could take him down.
He had no money, oooh no good at home.
He walked the streets a soldier and he fought the world alone
And now it's

18 and life You got it
18 and life you know
Your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go
[repeat above]

Tequila in his heartbeat, His veins burned gasoline.
It kept his motor running but it never kept him clean.
They say he loved adventure, "Ricky's the wild one."
He married trouble and had a courtship with a gun.
Bang Bang Shoot 'em up, The party never ends.
You can't think of dying when the bottle's your best friend
And now it's

18 and life You got it
18 and life you know
Your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go
[repeat above]

"Accidents will happen" they all heard Ricky say
He fired his six-shot to the wind - that child blew a child away.

18 and life You got it
18 and life you know
Your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go
[repeat above]

High Voltage

2006-10-21T05:26:00.000-04:00

Here is a song by Jonathan Davis, frontman of Korn, off of the Queen of the Damned soundtrack called Forsaken...

Im over it.
You see Im falling in a vast abyss
Clouded by memories of the past
At last I see

I hear it fading
I cant speak it
Or else you will dig my grave
You feel them finding
Always whining
Take my hand
Now be alive

You see I cannot be forsaken
Because Im not the only one
We walk amongst you
Feeding, raping
Must we hide from everyone

Im over it
Why cant we be together?
Endlessly
Sleeping so long
Taking off the masks
At last I see

My fear is fading
I cant speak it
Or else you will dig my grave
You fear them finding
Always whining
Take my hand
Now be alive

You see I cannot be forsaken
Because Im not the only one
We walk amongst you
Feeding, raping
Must we hide from everyone

You see I cannot be forsaken
Because Im not the only one
We walk amongst you
Feeding, raping
Must we hide from everyone

Everyone
Everyone

Change

2006-10-21T00:45:00.000-04:00

The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not exactly sure who the first person was who said that but at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change.

I don't think I am alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still. It feels better somehow and if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected...who knows what other pain might be waiting out there. Chances are it could be even worse.

So you maintain the status quo, choose the road already traveled, and it doesn't seem that bad, not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict, you're not killing anyone...except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked really, really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you, that change feels like a world of difference and you hope that it is...that this is the person you get to be forever. That you'll never have to change again.

Monopoly

2006-10-19T12:49:00.000-04:00

All you have to do is register, it's free, and then you get to play Monopoly without having to breakout the board. Up to 4 players and you can play it a variety of ways. I wouldn't mind getting some of my fellow bloggers, Me, Pinky, Redneck Girl, Pavel, and play a nice game of Monopoly.

Finally....upgraded to Blogger Beta

2006-10-19T10:47:00.001-04:00

Just wanted to let you all know.

I've had an epiphany--part 1

2006-10-19T09:49:00.000-04:00

For the past few weeks I've been trying to figure out how I was going to go about sharing a few bad experiences I've had in my marriage. Trying to figure out a way to put into words how my marriage is not perfect and how unhappy I get from time to time with my marriage and my station in life and it all seemed as if I no fault in any of my problems although I never truly thought of it like that...not taking responsibility for some of the things I have done that have shaped my life to what it is now. I'm going to try and shape this into something coherent and in some kind of order so please bear with me...

I love my wife. I love my wife very much so that to be away from her for only 3 days feels like months and I get a good feeling as if I was denied being able to see her as punishment but on occasion I feel as if there are things she needs to work on and things she needs to recognize in order to fix herself and/or our marriage.

One of those things is her ability to make rash decisions when mad. I'm not saying that after an argument she has cheated on me although I'll never really know unless she tells me. One of her worst is keeping any number of things from me because she thinks that I'll get mad and she hold on to it until eventually it starts to eat away at her and only way for her to bring it up is through arguing. Another one of those decisions and it's a large one that she's made pretty much durout our entire marriage and before we got married is keeping contact with her ex-boyfriend. Early on in our relationship she asked me if it was OK to keep brief contact with her ex because she was with him for 2 years and was close to his family. Initially it did spark a negative reaction out of me but I decided what the hell. We've only been together for a few weeks and if we were to start getting serious down the road I'm sure it would fade away but as they say hindsight is always 20/20. She would occasionally send him an instant message asking how his family was doing and that was it. After we got married is when I first got into retail so it's been pretty non stop since then so it was either work or spending time with her. We'll get back to this later.

Now, our problems didn't really start until after the little one was born in May of 2002. I wasn't exactly a model father but then again, most new fathers aren't. Took me a while to start living up to my responsibilities as a father. I inherited a horrible spending habit from my mother and my wife's was just as bad from her mother. My mother simply spent a lot of money when she didn't make enough of it as it was and having to support me. Her mother usually ran her credits pretty high buying whatever she wanted and hiding the statements and purchases from her father which she still does to this day. Eventually I was able to beat that materialistic illness although I still get the urge to buy something...ANYTHING...whenever I had any amount of cash on me but I'm able to contain myself. It took my wife a few years but I think she has it under control. I was buying DVDs like crazy, eating out every night, buying games and needless amounts of crap when I should have been spending it on necessities like baby formula, diapers, food for us, gas, etc., etc.

One thing that ties into the bad father subject was my ability to hold down a job. I'll admit this is something I am in no way proud of. There has been only two reasons for this. A. Because I had an asshole manager(s) and just made any excuse to quit the job or B. Because I was fired because of my compulsion to steal. I've lost many jobs I've loved because of it and have lost great opportunities because of it. 1.) My job at Mars Music, the ultimate job for a musician. 2.) Blockbuster, my other obsession which is movies. 3.) Cobb Theatre, again with my movie obsession and I was a shift leader. No one knows this but I was almost arrested for what I did, it involved someone else's credit card, and would have gone down a bad road but lucky for me that someone else was very forgiving and understanding and did not press charges. 4.) Petco, worked long and hard as usual and my hard work had paid off because I was given a promotion. I was going to be a key holding team leader but because I had to go and steal things from a local Walmart I was arrested and when running a background check, which is a standard procedure for anyone moving up to management, the felony popped up and the promotion was taken away.

There's a lot more to be said but I need a break....stay tuned...

Bill & Ted's Bogus Journey Tribute Video

2006-10-19T06:19:00.000-04:00

This is one of my favorite movie endings. The beginning guitar part was made by Steve Vai and then goes into God Gave Rock & Roll To You II by KISS. That beginning part almost sounds regal. This song is the ultimate anthem for all musicians...listen to the lyrics and you'll see what I'm talking about.

God gave rock and roll to you, gave rock and roll to you
Put it in the soul of everyone

Do you know what you want? You don't know for sure
You don't feel right, you can't find a cure
And you're gettin' less than what you're lookin' for

You don't have money or a fancy car
And you're tired of wishin' on a falling star
You gotta put your faith in a loud guitar

Chorus:
God gave rock and roll to you, gave rock and roll to you
Gave rock and roll to everyone (oh yeah)
God gave rock and roll to you, gave rock and roll to you
Put it in the soul of everyone

"Now listen"
If you wanna be a singer, or play guitar
Man, you gotta sweat or you won't get far
Cause it's never too late to work nine-to-five

You can take a stand, or you can compromise
You can work real hard or just fantasize
But you don't start livin' till you realize - "I gotta tell ya!"

God gave rock and roll to you, gave rock and roll to you
Gave rock and roll to everyone
God gave rock and roll to you, gave rock and roll to you
Put it in the soul

(Instrumental break)

God gave rock and roll to you (to everyone he gave the song to be sung)
Gave rock and roll to you, gave rock and roll to everyone

God gave rock and roll to you (to everyone he gave the song to be sung)
Gave rock and roll to you, saved rock and roll for everyone
Saved rock and roll

chorus repeats out...

"I know life sometimes can get tough! And I know life sometimes can be a drag!
But people, we have been given a gift, we have been given a road
And that road's name is... Rock and Roll!"

Stonesour "Bother"

2006-10-16T18:55:00.000-04:00

Was in a bit of a melancholy mood right now and this is the first song I heard when I turned on the radio this morning. Enjoy.

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me sh** to digest
I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
With its memories
Diaries left
With cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I'll never live down my deceit

Emperor Palpatine/Darth Sidious looks for a job

2006-10-16T00:22:00.000-04:00

80's Rock Sundays!!

2006-10-15T06:08:00.000-04:00

Here's Dokken with Alone Again from Under Lock and Key

I'd like to see you in the morning light
I like to feel you when it comes to night
Now I'm here and I'm all alone
Still I know how it feels, I'm alone again

Tried so hard to make you see
But I couldn't find the words
Now the tears, they fall like rain
I'm alone again without you
Alone again without you
Alone again without you

I said stay, but you turned away
Tried to say that it was me
Now I'm here and I've lost my way
Still I know how it feels, I'm alone again

Tried so hard to make you see
But I couldn't find the words
Now the tears, they fall like rain
I'm alone again without you

I tried so hard to make you see
But I couldn't find the words
Now the tears, they fall like rain
I'm alone again without you

Fowl Words

2006-10-14T01:51:00.000-04:00

I found this cool little game to pass the time called Fowl Words. You're supposed to try to come up with as many words as you can before the timer runs out. As always post your scores. First try I got 39,800.

The Classics

2006-10-14T00:56:00.000-04:00

If you were to ask a 4 year old girl what her favorite song is, what do you think she would tell you? I'm sure you'd think something off of Barney or the Spongebob Squarepants theme song or some wacky song off a cartoon. Well, no my daughter of course. It is none other than Van Halen's Love Walks In, whose video I have played before in this post and I know exactly how it became her favorite song. Here is my story:

My car has a bum speaker...the one in the backseat left hand side and it was affecting the front left side speaker as well as long as the back speaker was still connected. I guess the wire was coming loose little by little because I started to hear a signal coming out of the front left speaker for once where as before there was nothing but the right side. So I started to play something grand like Van Halen's Love Walks In. I remember playing a lot especially with her in the car and one day I remember hearing her kind of signing the melody of some song that sounded familiar to be but couldn't place it. Then one day I'm playing the song in the car after I picked up her from school and notice another voice singing along with Sammy but I'm thinking it's a doubled track or something but it's awfully high pitched. Then I look in the rear view mirror and to my surprise she's singing along word for word. Now, every day she wants to hear her "favorite" song that starts with "Contact..."...the first word of the song. lol. I couldn't stop laughing.

But I'm not done. What else could there be you say? Well, she's had this obsession with the first ever made Mighty Morphin Power Rangers movie these last few weeks. Well, it turns out that the last song of the movie right before going into the credits is none other than Van Halen's Dreams. So now she knows that the people that play her favorite song also plays the Power Rangers song at the end so I hear those two songs almost every day. Hey, better that then The Wiggles.

World turns black and white
Pictures in an empty room
Your love starts fallin' down
Better change your tune
Yeah, you reach for the golden ring
Reach for the sky
Baby, just spread your wings

We'll get higher and higher
Straight up we'll climb
We'll get higher and higher
Leave it all behind

Run, run, run away
Like a train runnin' off the track
Got the truth bein' left behind
Falls between the cracks
Standin' on broken dreams
Never losin' sight, ah
Well just spread your wings

We'll get higher and higher
Straight up we'll climb
We'll get higher and higher
Leave it all behind

So baby dry your eyes
Save all the tears you've cried
Oh, that's what dreams are made of
'Cause we belong in a world that must be strong
Oh, that's what dreams are made of

Yeah, we'll get higher and higher
Straight up we'll climb
Higher and higher
Leave it all behind
Oh, we'll get higher and higher
Who knows what we'll find?

So baby dry your eyes
Save all the tears you've cried
Oh, that's what dreams are made of
Oh baby, we belong in a world that must be strong
Oh, that's what dreams are made of

And in the end on dreams we will depend
'Cause that's what love is made of

High Voltage

2006-10-14T00:40:00.000-04:00

Hello and welcome to another edition of High Voltage, an immediate jolt of Heavy Metal Videos. Sorry for the temporary hiatus. This next song is off the Saw II soundtrack. Here is Spineshank with Smothered.

The black and cold reminds me
Of all the distance we have crossed
And if your darkness blinds me
I could never be more lost

But I'm not the one who seeks your protection
I'm not the one to share the disguise
And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection
I'm not the one to tear the same way twice

(chorus)
You push from the inside - smothered
You push from the inside out - smothered
You push from the inside - smothered
You push from the inside out - smothered

Have all your walls surround me
They're closing in they block my sight
The violence around me
Found me when I could not fight

But I'm not the one to take your direction
I'm not the one who wears the disguise
And I'm not the one to share your reflection
I'm not the one you break the same way twice

(chorus)

I will never win
I will never win with you

I read you
I fear you round up no more than you know
I hate you
I still do everytime you let me go

Mouse for women

2006-10-12T21:55:00.000-04:00

'nuff said. This would make millions, I think. For all those women that work in offices or have desk jobs.

Andy Serkis/Gollum's Award

2006-10-12T11:57:00.000-04:00

I remember the first time I saw this I couldn't stop laughing for nearly an hour and still chuckled every time I thought about it. Then I found on good ol' You Tube and thought I'd share it with everyone. Enjoy!!

Another dream

2006-10-12T06:11:00.000-04:00

It's 6 a.m. and I had another dream that kept me awake indefinitely. I only have an hour before having to get up to get my little one ready for school so whatever. This dream was more of the supernatural kind. Here goes:

I was at my mother's watching a movie. I had already seen the part we were in so I got up to go to the kitchen to get a snack and drink. Then out of nowhere I was back in my own bed with my wife next to me so I assumed I woke up. I'm lying there as it usually takes me a few minutes to go back to sleep. I normally lie on my front side and was facing my right towards the door that leads outside our house. All of a sudden I see this weird cloudy, shadowy shape float quickly over me and my wife and it felt like something or someone was over us...on top of us and then disappeared. We both woke up terrified. Then I opened my eyes and for some reason I was seeing a female face floating next to me. Then I REALLY woke up.

Um...yeah

2006-10-07T15:45:00.000-04:00

Sorry for not having a proper title but I'm not feeling very inspired to come up with a witty title. There are a lot of things that I'm not happy with in my life and some I have come to terms with and some I have not. One of them is still living with my in laws. Living in this house feels more like a prison sentence than simply living in a home. Now some of you might be saying "how bad can it be?" or "you couldn't have been there that long for it to be that bad." Well, try living six years with your inlaws. Not just mommy and daddy in law but a little brother and older brother in law. Plus all the baggage that comes along with the entire family. I'm not going to bother typing every single thing that's wrong with this family because this would be one LONG post. The 2 people I can't stand the most, I mean I could go the rest of my life without having any contact with these people and I would die a happy man is my wife's second cousin and her dad, my father in law.

2.) Susan. This is the biggest snob I have ever met. The woman talks on and on....for the simple fact that she likes to hear herself talk. She has no tact whatsoever and doesn't think of things before she says them. She has this holier than though attitude that just makes me want to punch her in the face.

1.) Ah, the father in law. I only wish living with such a person, being in contact with such a person to only my absolute worst enemy...to someone I absolutely despise. This man has a short temper and whatever he says is the end. His only justification for throwing a fit or temper tantrum and yelling at a pregnant woman, yes, my wife, is because this is his house and he'll talk to HIS daughter however he wants. Well, it's my wife and my daughter in there. While I tried to calm the situation by trying to sit down with him and talk about things peacefully all he can do is get in my face and tell me that it's his house and if I don't like it I can get the hell out. This is the man that would come banging and kicking at my bedroom door whenever my daughter, who at the time was only about 4 or 5 months old, because the baby was crying and it was annoying him. We either shut the baby up or get out. This went on for about a month or two. I barely slept and eventually had a nervous breakdown at work because of it. Screaming and cursing in front of me, my wife, and daughter to shut her up. It's a baby.

To this day if she whines a bit here and there while we try to show discipline that apparently throws him off his game of PC chess or warcraft or whatever game he's playing and starts yelling and scream to get her to shut up. Screaming all kinds of vulgar words in spanish. He has yet to pull something like that in front of me and my daughter but I fear that day if it comes because God knows what I'm capable of.

Orly M.I.A.

2006-10-06T09:00:00.000-04:00

Sorry all for my disappearance. Been a bit strange lately. A lot of mixed emotions going on in my head and it pretty much brought me down to the point where I didn't want to do much not even posting on my blogger. Here's what I've been up to lately:

1.) Just finished watching the entire third season of 24. You start one episode and you just can't stop until your practically falling asleep...in my case I was falling asleep on my computer desk. At the moment, I'm downloading the entire 4th season and it should be done in a few days. For those who like this show and would like me to pass it on to a dvd, just ask and send me a few blank dvds.

2.) Playing a little game on my PC called Land of the Dead: Road to Fiddler's Green. If you're a zombie fan then this game is for you. It's basically a side story from the movie Land of the Dead by George A. Romero but the funny thing it's much more fun to play this game online after installing all the different kind of update patches and maps and extra audio and weapons. Not for the faint of heart of course. It does get a bit gory but you can't expect less from a zombie game.

3.) Spending time with my little one, my boo boo. Even though I hate getting up early in the morning, the only thing that helps is a long hot shower, I'm good to go once I'm heading out the door holding her bookbag and lunchbag or lunch pouch...whatever it may be called. As I'm sitting there on the concrete bench with her giving her her breakfast I think to myself "I better enjoy these little moments now". I can pretty much say my mornings with her before she goes inside her classroom are the highlight of my days.

Off to a different subject. I was watching 2 different shows in the last week or so...24 season 3 and Family Guy season 3 and something in both shows reminded me of my little "problem". On my Family Guy Lois doesn't have enough money to get whatever poultry it is she wanted and while going back to return it to where it goes she looks around and slips it in her purse and thus begins her road to becoming a klepto. You can see that the "rush" she gets from going to different places and just getting anything she wants through 5 finger discount and it lands her in jail.

On 24 Jack Bauer, the main character of the show played by Kiefer Sutherland, he becomes a heroin junkie while on assignment that is part of his cover while trying to infiltrate a mexican drug cartel. You see when his assignment is done he has to go "cold turkey" because he is the director of the counter terrorist unit so he starts going through his withdrawels (did I spell that right?) and you can see that it must be a horrible thing for someone to go through.

My point to this is that I was going through something like that with me being a klepto. I would say to myself that I was going to stop but after a few days I would feel those feelings of withdrawels and just go back to doing what I was doing. There was a list of reasons for my doing this and it's all bull$hit. Because it was easy. Because it would save me money. Because I could make money. Because I can. Because they deserve it. The weird thing is I hated that feeling all the way up to point where I knew I was in the clear with whatever I was pocketing...but at the same time I loved it. Does that make any sense? I hated it because I felt like i was going to have a heart attack or just pass out from the fear of being caught but loved it and I can't pinpoint a reason why. I figured after being caught and arrested in front of my mother, wife and daughter and going through the heavy sense of embarrassment that I would not dishonor them by doing it again and unfortunately I did for about another year after that up until last week...exact date was September 25, 2006. I've been a little over a week and half "sober". I feel embarrassed talking about this but I don't know what else to do other than to talk about it and maybe that would help me recognize it and be able to put a stop to it.

I have a few other issues I want to share with the few readers I do have but I'll finish up for now. Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. I'm dying to hear your 2 cents on the following subjects I will be bringing up.

Antichrist

2006-09-27T19:31:00.000-04:00

Director Lars Von Trier has decided to make a horror movie called Antichrist. The film will be set in nature and be based on a theory that Satan created the world, not God. Based on that premise, it should be an interesting movie. Let's see how it goes.

Staind "Right Here"

2006-09-27T19:26:00.000-04:00

I posted this song once before when I first started posting but I think I erased it by mistake. I felt like reposting it because hearing this song today I can really relate to this song and how I feel about my marriage every now and again but that's a story for another day.

Right Here

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting

Happy Hour

2006-09-27T17:50:00.000-04:00

My wife was invited to Happy Hour with fellow co workers to celebrate the return of an employee who used to work there for many years, left and then returned so it's just me and my boo-boo tonight for a few hours. I was a bit apprehensive about her going, I'll go into detail another day, but I figure it would be good for her to go out and socialize with some of the co workers. I enjoy the time I spend with my little one when everyone is out so I'm going to go and get us some dinner and sit down and enjoy some Spongebob Squarepants. Can't go wrong with Spongebob.

2006-09-24T20:12:00.000-04:00

I WANT TO SEE SOME LIGHTERS FOR THIS NEXT SONG!! COME ON!! LEMME SEE THEM!! THIS NEXT SONG IS CINDERELLA'S DON'T KNOW WHAT YA GOT ('TILL IT'S GONE!)

I can't tell ya baby what went wrong
I can't make you feel what you felt
So long ago, I'll let it show
I can't give you back what's been hurt
Heartaches come and go and all that's
Left are the words I can't let go
If we take some time think it over baby
Take some time let me know
If you really wanna go

[CHORUS:]
Don't know what you got till it's gone
Don't know what it is I did so wrong
Now I know what I've got
It's just this song
And it ain't easy to get back
Takes so long

I can't feel the things that cause you pain
I can't clear my heart of your love
It falls like rain, ain't the same
I hear you calling far away
Tearing through my soul I just can't
Take another day, who's to blame
If we take some time think it over baby
Take some time let me know
If you really wanna go

[CHORUS]

Do you want to see me beggin' baby
Can't you give me just one more day
Can't you see my heart's been draggin' lately
I've been lookin' for the words to say

[CHORUS 2x]

High Voltage

2006-09-23T18:13:00.000-04:00

Up next off the Freddy vs. Jason soundtrack, here is Ill Nino with How Can I Live

I am so unlike you
In so many ways
I know I'm just a copy
That carries on the stains

We make the same mistake
We all wanted the same
We leave behind the stains
I cannot separate

All the lies in me
All that dies in me X2
How can I live without you?

I am your mirror image
I'm all you left behind
Who made me what I am?
And who the hell am I?

We make the same mistake
We all wanted the same
We leave behind the stains
I cannot separate

All the lies in me
All that dies in me X2
How can I live without you?

I know that our lives are the same
Just to rid my name of dirty stains
I will not follow your steps in the same way
That you walked away and pushed away
And I will not live

Do you think of me?
Do you dream of me?
I always dream about you

All the lies in me
All that dies in me X2
How can I live without you?

Bad dream

2006-09-20T07:20:00.000-04:00

I thought I'd get it down before I completely forget all the details. You know how you always remember the moment you wake up but as time goes by you can't remember it for the life of you.

I've had this feeling over the last few years that certain people in my family think that I leech off of my mother financially. No one has ever come out and told me but it's a feeling I can't shake off. Here's the dream:

My mother is living in a nice little town house, I think I might be living with her as well and yet I'm with my wife and daughter in the dream so it's weird. There are other things happening that don't really pertain to the dream but at one point I get dropped off at my mother's home by a friend. As I'm walking towards the house I notice it's bit darker than usual and when I get to the door I notice a note on the door. It reads something like "This home has been vacated" and when I take a look inside through the glass the house is empty and it has just been painted. She had just disappeared and hadn't told me anything. Now, in the dream, immediately I knew my brother Priamo was involved so I start to feel anxious and anger. It is late at night and have no where to go and feel abandoned. My friends had already been long gone so I was alone and start walking to another friend's home and my wife was there. I try calling her but she changed her cell #. I call my brother Priamo and nothing. It was as if they were going to go on with their lives without me. In the dream it was as if my brother had enough of my mother helping me financially. I didn't know what to do and had this deep feeling of panick and still had it when I woke up. I remember saying to my wife in the dream "If we ever see her again she will not see the baby again."

Reading it back now it felt a lot worse than I'm describing...so much so that I still felt angry, anxious, panicky long after waking up. It's been a few years since I used to ask for money here and there around the time that me and my wife first met but not anymore. When it came to my court fees and other things having to do with my "disease" which I spoke about in this post I came to the realization I was going to need help. It was too much for me to handle on my own. I don't know the point to this post...I still have those lingering after effects from that dream so I felt I had to post it down. Maybe one day I'll finally get those answers I've been looking for about my family......WEENIEMAN (coughs)

80's Rock Sundays!!

2006-09-17T22:16:00.000-04:00

Me and some friends, our senior year of high school and the first 2-3 years after, used this next song as an anthem. It's a great rockin' song and awesome video. Off of their 2nd album Open Up and say...Ahh! here's Poison with Nothin' But A Good Time.

Now listen
Not a dime I can't pay my rent
I can barely make it through the week
Saturday night I'd like to make my girl
But right now I can't make my ends meet

I'm always workin', slavin' every day
Gotta get a break from that same old same old
I need a chance just to get away
If you could hear me think this is what I'd say

Don't need nothin' but a good time
How can I resist
Ain't lookin for nothin' but a good time
And it don't get better than this

They say I spend my money on women and wine
But I couldn't tell ya where I spent last night
I'm real sorry 'bout the shape I'm in
I just like my fun every now and then

I'm always workin', slavin' every day
Gotta get a break from the same old same old
I need a chance just to get away
If you could hear me think this is what I'd say

Don't need nothin' but a good time
How can I resist
Ain't lookin for nothin' but a good time
And it don't get better than this

You see I raise a toast to all of us
Who are breakin' our backs every day
If wantin' the good life is such a crime
Lord, then put me away, yea
Here's to ya

(lead)

Chorus
Don't need nothin' but a good time
How can I resist
Ain't lookin for nothin' but a good time
And it don't get better than this
Don't need nothin' but a good time
How can I resist
Ain't lookin for nothin' but a good time
And it don't get better than this

Gollum lashes out

2006-09-17T20:35:00.000-04:00

I am a huge Lord of the Rings fan but I didn't become one after the famous trilogy came out on film like everyone else did. I became a fan a fter my brother, Pavel, forced me to read the Hobbit which I wasn't too keen on doing at first. I had to read 1 chapter a night and then give him a brief summary on what happened just to make sure I actually read it. By the end I was glad he did because I got to keep his copy and it's a very old copy from 1963...only a few years after the holy trilogy was released by H.R.R. Tolkien. So thank you, weenieman. Oh, for those who read my post on the possible start of filming the Hobbit...it has been confirmed. The Hobbit will start pre-production sometime next year around the summer time. The question now is whether or not they can get Peter Jackson back to the helm since he has a busy schedule.

I found this clip on Andy Serkis winning an award on best virtual character in a movie on the MTV movie awards...I thought I'd share because it's quite funny and Gollum himself makes QUITE an appearance.

M.I.A. + PSP vs. iPod

2006-09-16T20:11:00.000-04:00

Sorry for not posting lately. It's been a hectic week and a half at work with us already being a bit short handed and to make it worse our team leader left on vacation for a little over a week which put us behind quite a bit. Plus one of my bosses is being an ahole about my earrings. I have 2 in each ear but according to company policy men can only wear 1 earring in each because the animals could/can get attracted to the jewelry and rip them off causing injury. So...let me get this straight. I can't wear 2 in each ear but it's ok to wear 1 in each ear because........uhh.......birds and small animals are only attracted to it if you're wearing 2+ earrings in each ear?? OMG. The only good news I got this week was that my two faced store manager was leaving for good and we were getting a new manager from another Petsmart a little farther up north. Now we just need to get rid of the operations manager.

Well, for really busting my butt these past few weeks since I've been given priority on hours I bought myself a Sony PSP. I know that some of you may be avid iPod users and I know people that swear by this horribly expensive little thing but I'll take a Sony PSP over it any day of the week. You can play video games, whose graphics beat out any hand held system ever made and can be almost compared to the Playstation 2, both purchased in UMD format or download into your PSP. You can download music into it. You can download/upload pictures. You can go on the internet and you can sign on through a hotspot or if you have a wireless router. I mean there is so many things you can do with it and all for the low price of $199.99. Last I heard the iPods you can watch movies with and listen to music with was going for about $300 or so.

High Voltage

2006-09-16T20:02:00.000-04:00

Todays music video is off the soundtrack of the hit movie Resident Evil: Apocalypse. Here is Killswitch Engage with The End of Heartache.

Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting (2x)

This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you

Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division

In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors my torment

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory

For comfort, for solace
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

Tag!! You're It!!

2006-09-12T09:26:00.001-04:00

Sorry I took so long to do this. Been working my butt off and by the time I got home all I want is SLEEP. So here goes:

1.) When I sit down to have dinner or lunch while at home I have to watch t.v. or I get moody.

2.) I own 2 ferrets named Brad and Angelina

3.) I'd rather work in retail and deal with mentally unstable customers than work in an office

4.) I was once offered a part in a documentary being filmed in Miami documenting on the life of a rock musician in Latin Miami but eventually the project was shut down

5.) Disturbed is my favorite band

6.) Everytime I look at my daughter I still get the same feeling I got when I looked at her the day she was born

7.) I want to move and have a place of my own already. Unfortunately, me and the missus have been living with her parents for about 6 years now.

8.) I would do almost anything to have a career as a musician.

80's Rock Sundays!!

2006-09-10T20:19:00.000-04:00

Off of their 4th album New Jersey, here is Bon Jovi with I'll Be There For You. My wife helped me pick this one.

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
Well as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love its suicide
You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance girl

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe, I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
Well I can't promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your Valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

I wasn't there when you were happy
And I wasn't there when you were down
Didn't mean to miss your birthday baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for ...

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you ...

High Voltage

2006-09-09T03:09:00.000-04:00

Welcome to another edition of High Voltage and here's another dose of metal coming your way. This next band has it all: melodies, soul, angst, passion...off their 3rd album Animosity here is Sevendust with Live Again.

Feeling Nothing
Lonely Empty
You try to walk away but you fall
You cannot understand what's this for

In this world I see it more
The pain you feel that I ignore

You see my face and then you see
nothin'
Confused. you turn and live on
I turn my face
You're staring back again
Look at yourself and live again

Can't see me. you feel me
Want me. you'll find me
I'll be your everything
Will you call
You'll need more & more
When you fall

In this world I see it more
The pain you feel that I ignore

You see my face and then you see
nothing
Confused. you turn and live on
I turn my face
You're staring back again
Look at yourself and live again

How many times have you looked
At yourself & felt mistreated
How does it feel to know that
This life of yours is real
All of your life you've been led
To believe your nothin'
So look at yourself and start to live
again

You see my face and then you see
nothing
Confused you turn and live on
I turn my face
You're staring back again
Look at yourself and live again

If you don't change you'll be nothin'

So look at yourself and live again

I turn my face
You're staring back again

So look at yourself and live again

The Nightmare Before Christmas 3-D

2006-09-07T09:51:00.000-04:00

For all you Tim Burton fans out there, The Nightmare Before Christmas will be released in select theaters in 3-D sometime in October. I loved this film and look forward to watching it again...kind of wish it would be in IMAX though.

That's a lot of booty!!

2006-09-07T09:42:00.000-04:00

Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest will cross the $1 billion mark making it the 3rd film alonside the Titanic and Lord of the Rings: Return of the King to achieve this. I actually liked this movie but I'm surprised to read on many forums and having people I know tell me they didn't like it all that much. They felt it dragged a bit and could have gotten to the point much quicker. I guess to me it was a fun movie so I didn't feel the drag.

Gladiator Sequel

2006-09-06T00:41:00.000-04:00

It turns out that Ridley Scott thought about this once before in 2003 but couldn't really think of anything worth going forward with so the idea was dropped. Now it seems that both Scott and Russell Crowe are all for bringing Maximus back from the dead. We all remember that Maximus dies at the end of Gladiator by the tyrant Cesar of Rome with a poison tipped sword. We also assume he died because we see him with his family in the afterlife but I'm going to assume that Ridley Scott will say he was going through dilirium from the poison in his system. Hey...if they brought back Spock I don't see why this couldn't fly.

All American Fund Raising

2006-09-05T22:22:00.000-04:00

Hello all. My daughter's school is doing a fund raising of sorts. We basically have this catalog full of neat things from treats like different kinds of chocolates boxes to gummy worms, calenders, gift bags and wrapping papers, subsriptions to magazines, picture frames, necklaces, bill organizers, and all kinds of stuff. If you decide to order something when you proceed to the checkout it's going to ask you if you'd like to give the credit to a specific student and what school they're from. E-Mail me at ESPLineSixer@aim.com and I will send you that info so my daughter can get the credit as if she sold it to you. Depending on how many things she sells she'll get a cool gift of her choosing from the catalog we have like if she sells 80-99 items she'll get anything she chooses from that section like a phone or electronic type toys. Come on everybody, help us out here. :)

Frogger

2006-09-05T22:20:00.000-04:00

I found this cool website with a bunch of old school games and I thought I'd share it with you guys. It has frogger, space invaders, simon, asteroids, snake, tic-tac-toe. Let's see who can beat the high score in frogger.

Where did everybody go??

2006-09-05T08:47:00.000-04:00

I'm starting to get a bit lonely here after finally getting some readers. I know we're having an issue with the new Beta version for blogger where beta users can't post on non-beta bloggers and vice-versa. What's going on, blogger? I finally get the hang of this thing and give up myspace for it. Where is Redneck girl and Mindtwister and Pinky?

R.I.P. Steve Irwin

2006-09-04T11:49:00.000-04:00

Some of you may not know him by his real name...he is otherwise known as "The Crocodile Hunter." He was filming a piece for an upcoming show called "Ocean's Deadliest" and was killed by a stingray with it's poisonous barb right through his heart. My condolences go out to his wife and 2 kids.

80's Rock Sundays!!

2006-09-03T03:48:00.000-04:00

On today's 80's rock blog I bring you a band with one of rock's best guitarist, Paul Gilbert. Off of their album Lean Into It, here is Mr. Big with To Be With You

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

[chorus]
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

[chorus]
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

[chorus]
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

High Voltage

2006-09-02T02:05:00.000-04:00

Hello all and welcome to the 1st edition of High Voltage where it's nothing but Metal Videos. Every Saturday tune in to this blogger for a new video of Maximum Metal Madness. Right now we're going to play a video from a band that has been described as a "Metal" U2. Off of their 2nd album Believe, here is Disturbed with "Prayer"

Another dream that will never come true
Just to compliment your sorrow
Another life that I've taken from you
A gift to add on to your pain and suffering
Another truth you can never believe
Has crippled you completely
All the cries you're beginning to hear
Trapped in your mind, and the sound is deafening

Let me enlighten you
This is the way I pray

[chorus:]
Living just isn't hard enough
Burn me alive, inside
Living my life's not hard enough
Take everything away

Another nightmare about to come true
Will manifest tomorrow
Another love that I've taken from you
Lost in time, on the edge of suffering
Another taste of the evil I breed
Will level you completely
Bring to life everything that you fear
Live in the dark, and the world is threatening

Let me enlighten you
This is the way i pray

[chorus]
Living just isn't hard enough
Burn me alive, inside
Living my life's not hard enough
Take everything away

Return to me [3x]
Turn to me
Leave me no one
Turn to me
Return to me [2x]
Cast aside

Return to me [3x]
Turn to me
Leave me no one
Turn to me
Return to me [2x]
You've made me turn away

[chorus]
Living just isn't hard enough
Burn me alive, inside
Living my life's not hard enough
They take everything from you

Living just isn't hard enough
Burn me alive, inside
Living my life's not hard enough
Take everything away

Hi. My name is Orlando and I'm a cleptomaniac...

2006-09-01T23:59:00.000-04:00

Hi Orlando!!

We, me, my wife and daughter, were at Blockbuster to get Keifer Sutherland's new movie, the Sentinel (I'll post a review once I watch it). As we're walking towards the car my daughter says "Look, I like this candy." Then we notice she had a baby bottle pop candy that she had taken from the store. We told her we were going to go back into the store and she was going to give the cashier the candy back and apologize but I think we might have come off a bit strong to her because when we got back to the car she seemed to be embarrassed and sad. I guess my feelings towards this got the best of me since I had/have problems dealing with theft. Like I said in a previous post, it's border line addiction like a heroin junky or alcoholic. I was debating whether or not to talk about it because it is shameful and I feel embarrassed around those who know about previous exploits. It's something I wish I've completely overcome but it's only been a few months since my last "fix". I don't know if I can "officially" say I am a cleptomaniac since I have not been "officially" diagnosed with this problem. Can you be diagnosed with it? It's caused a few problems like getting fired from a job or getting arrested and spending two and a half hours in jail and let me tell you...the starting process before they place you in their cell is VERY demeaning (did I spell that right?)...have spent a large amount of money which my mother was kind enough and motherly enough to help me and help me through it by not judging me and saying it was simply a mistake which cost me, and her, a lot and to learn from it. I was close to being arrested before for the same reason but was lucky or God was looking out and walked away from it but did I learn after all that? I'm not sure. I swear to myself and make promises to my daughter that I will never do it again especially after having my wife and daughter presented at my arrest. I had never been at a lower point than that. I want to ask for help but don't know what to do.

The Hobbit to be filmed in '07??

2006-09-01T23:04:00.000-04:00

An unnamed source e-mailed theonering.net, a website dedicated to Lord of the Rings by avid fans, saying he had just left a meeting discussing upcoming projects at New Line's New York studios and said he got a view of the future schedule. I have to believe one of two things, either this is an important person at New Line or New line is just leaving things lying around for all to see. In any case, he saw The Hobbit to start filming in 2007. YAY!!! I'm taking this with a grain of salt though since it's not an official statement from New Line but it's still exciting to think about. I wonder who they're going to pick to be Bilbo since the Hobbit takes place about 50 years before.

DOAP Mockumentary

2006-09-01T08:39:00.000-04:00

A T.V. Channel over in the UK has produced a fake documentary called Death of a President about the fictional assassination of our President, George W. Bush. The film will be using cutting edge effects that is "shockingly real" to show Dubya being shot by a Syrian sniper in 2007. Obviously, we here in the States will not get to see this but it will also play at the Toronto Internation Film Festival.

I don't have any political views or ideals but even for those who are anti-bush this seems to be a bit over the top. I'm all for free speech and all that jazz but this can give out a sensationalistic, bandwagon "hate Bush", mob mentality that isn't needed. What do you think?

Carlos Mencia rant!!

2006-09-01T00:03:00.000-04:00

Found this video and I HAD to share it with you. I happen to agree with everyone he rants about. Enjoy.

Star Trek prequel

2006-08-31T22:47:00.000-04:00

Turns out that J.J. Abrams, producer for a few episodes of Lost, Alias and a few other well known television programs, has decided to go ahead and make another Star Trek movie but this time...it's going to be a prequel. The story basically follows James T. Kirk and Spock in their days at the academy. Despite the pleas of many Trekkies which state that Paramount should give Star Trek a break and leave it on the back burner for a few years and come back later to revive the franchise, Mr. Abrams and crew have basically given them the finger and decided to do it anyways and on their own terms.

There are rumors that William Shatner and Leonard Nimoy may appear in this movie and I think this may help draw some crowds so they can see the famous duo one last time but at this point it's just conjecture on their part.

New Zombie Flick!!

2006-08-31T06:41:00.000-04:00

According to Hollywood Reporter George A. Romero has signed on to write and direct a new addition to the zombie franchise titled, George A. Romero's Diary of the Dead. I don't know about you but I'm excited about this. I got a hint of this earlier in the year when I went to a toy convention in Orlando with a friend of mine and had the pleasure of meeting George himself. I asked what, if anything, he had planned for the zombie franchise and although he was being careful with his words he did say I would be pleasantly surprised with what he had in the works.

Plot Synopsis:
The movie will follow a group of indie filmmakers shooting a zombie flick in the woods but slowly realize they're surrounded by real zombies.

Its been said to be a mix of The Blair Witch Project meets Night of the Living Dead. Romero has had enough of working with major studios after working with Universal on Land of the Dead so he will be independently financed himself along with partner, Peter Grunwald. I love watching Zombie flicks because they're simply fun to watch and are too few in between.

eBay

2006-08-31T01:41:00.000-04:00

I got inspired by someone named Pinky who I met through my brother Pavel to reopen an eBay sellers account so I can possibly open a side business of selling vintage and collectable toys. The inspiration also comes from a friend of mine who's been doing this for a few years now and I must say he makes enough money to not have to work and then some. I'll give you an example. He found someone on eBay that found an old box of his old G.I. Joe toys and put it up for auction. Now the pictures were a bit blurry but my friend was able to see a certain accessory piece that alone was worth about $1300 if not more and my friend was able to buy his entire box for about $200-$300. He sold the accessory piece for about $1300 so just off that one piece was able to make back what he spent and make a HUGE profit. For the rest of the set he was able to get a few hundred dollars. He also buy and build an entire collection of a particular series, like his old He-Man set, piece by piece and then sells it for more than what he got it for. He's not conning anyone in doing this he just sits at home all day and finds auctions set by people that don't really know much about toys or what they are worth. I think he got about $6000+ for that He-Man set.
Anywho, I have a few things on eBay right now of things around the house I don't use anymore just to get me started. He's a link to one of them. If you'd like to see the other things I have on auction just click on "View Seller's Other Auctions". I'll blog it up whenever I have new things up for auction. Thanks Pinky!

Rudeness Capital of the World aka. Orly's Rant: Episode II

2006-08-31T00:39:00.000-04:00

I ran into this article in our local newspaper, The Miami Herald. It states that a national poll conducted last year and in 2002 that incivility and rudeness is a growing problem and it seems that South Florida is number 1 in a list of cities with the rudest people. I read the article and found that the majority of the problems talked about is quite evident here in South Florida. It's all about me, me, me. It does seem as if everyone feels like they are more important than everyone else. I have to admit I've caught myself acting that way while driving and I have since tried to eliminate that behavior. If I'm late to work then it's my own fault. A good example of almost everything this article discusses is go visit Walmart here in Miami. When I go people push me, push my little one, push my wife, push my cart even when my little one is sitting inside, push my mother if we happen to be in their way and there is no way through unless they wait a few seconds for a path to clear.

Another issue I go through is that although I am cuban I don't look like the typical "latino" as say my brother, Pavel. I have light features: Light brown hair, green eyes, light skin and when I speak I don't have the usual "Miamian" accent. I find myself to be pretty articulate compared to most people here. So when I get a spanish speaking customer that for whatever reason is annoyed with me starts to insult me in spanish to whoever they are with thinking I don't know Spanish. I let them roll with it for a while until the very end and I say to them in spanish "Oh, by the way, I understood every word you said." I would love to hear what you guys think about this article and maybe create some discussion on it.

I'm sick and tired of all the a$$holes that can't drive for shit in this city because it's getting old ALMOST getting into bad accidents a few times a day, everyday and to add insult to injury when they do something $hitty and then you yell at them they lower their window to start laughing at you and crack some jokes at me as if I'M the one that did something stupid. Just the other day some guy didn't see us in the turning lane and start to merge into our lane right on top of us. We honked and he finally noticed us. When I yelled "Nice driving! Next time, pay attention!" he rolled his window and made some incoherent comment about how cute I was sitting in the passenger seat and then blew a kiss at me. WTF is this all about?!

Yeah, it's pretty shitty living here in Miami and it's definitely not the place to raise children...not like Morristown, TN or Knoxville, TN the few times I was there to visit my brother.
I found this song on youtube.com and found it appropriate. It's from a great band called Nickelback and was edited to roll with scenes from a great game called Kingdom Hearts. If you have a PS2 I do recommend getting this game. My daughter loves sitting next to me to watch while I play it. Enjoy!!

"If Everyone Cared"
From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you’d be mine
But here we are, we’re here tonight

Singing Amen, I’m alive
Singing Amen, I’m alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died
And I’m singing

Amen I, I’m alive
Amen I, I’m alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We’ll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen I’m alive
Singing Amen I’m alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

We’d see the day, we’d see the day
When nobody died
We’d see the day, we’d see the day
When nobody died
We’d see the day when nobody died

A.M.P.

2006-08-30T23:42:00.000-04:00

No, this is not a blog about amplifiers but a song dedication to my beautiful and wonderful daughter, Autumn Melody Plasencia. What sparked this blog you may ask? Well, the other day me, my wife and daughter were at Blockbuster renting a movie and Autumn picked up a box of Spongebob Squarepants Crabby Patties candies. Once we were done and half way out the door we realized that we didn't pay for it so we decided to walk back and pay for it so as not to show a bad example for our daughter. I don't want her growing up thinking it's O.K. the way I grew up with my family and our "famous" Walt Disney world trips. The customer service rep there commented on how weird it was to see someone coming back and paying for something when they were already out the door so he decided to give us a discount on the box of candy and said thank you. This is something I want to teach her because I'm afraid I have not fully learned this valuable trait. I consider it an addiction the way you would look at a drug addict or alcoholics. I've been arrested for it once and have tried to stop even after repeated pleas from my wife. I have been denied a promotion from my previous job because of the mark that one arrest left on my record. I am in the process right now to have it expunged/sealed from my record....but that's for another blog.

I would love to teach her to be humble regardless of how good she is at any one thing. I would love to teach her respect like showing respect for other people's opinions. I would to teach her to always tell the truth even if it means getting grounded, losing an opportunity, getting fired from a job. To appeal to the nobler motives. To be sympathetic with the other person's idea and desires. To show her that if she works hard enough dreams do come true. I want these things and more to shape her into a genuine and "real" person and not the usual faker that surround me.

Well I want you to notice
To notice when I'm not around
I know your eyes see straight through me
And speak to me without a sound

And I want to hold you
Protect you from all the things I've already endured
And I want to show you
To show you all of the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way a father sould love his daughter

When I walked out this morning
I cried as I walked to the door
I cried about how long I'd be away
I cried about leaving you alone

And I want to hold you
Protect you from all the things I've already endured
And I want to show you
To show you all of the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way a father sould love his daughter

Sweet Zoe Jane
Sweet Zoe Jane

So I wanted to say this
'cause I wouldn't know where to begin
To explain to you what I have been through
To explain where your daddy has been

And I want to hold you
Protect you from all the things I've already endured
And I want to show you
To show you all of the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way a father sould love his daughter

Sweet Zoe Jane
Sweet Zoe Jane

Strange facts and useless information

2006-08-29T00:54:00.000-04:00

I was surfing online waiting to get tired to go to bed and I stumbled upon this website full of facts and useless information. I thought I'd share the most interesting, the strangest, and the most usless ones.

1.) It takes glass one million years to decompose, which means it never wears out and can be recycled an infinite amount of times!

2.) Most lipstick contains fish scales! (Kind of makes you think twice before kissing someone with lipstick)

3.) It's illegal to drink beer out of a bucket while you're sitting on a curb in St. Louis!

4.) Over 2500 left handed people a year are killed from using products made for right handed people! (????)

5.) Until 1796, there was a state in the United States called Franklin. Today it's known as Tennessee! (Did you know this, weenieman?)

6.) In Natoma, Kansas, it's illegal to throw knives at men wearing striped suits!

7.) After eating, a housefly regurgitates its food and then eats it again! (How in the hell did they find THIS out?!)

8.) In Miami, it is forbidden to imitate an animal! (I was born and raised here in Miami and I've never heard of this law...not once!)

9.) In Memphis, Tennessee, a woman is not to drive a car unless a man warns approaching motorists or pedestrians by walking in front of the car that is being driven! (If you get a chance to visit Memphis, Pavel, please find out if this is true. This is too funny)

10.) In Tennessee, it is against the law to drive a car while sleeping. (OK, what is wrong with the peopl of Tennessee??)

Hurricane Ernesto

2006-08-29T00:09:00.000-04:00

It's that time again. It seems like it was only yesterday that we here in South Florida went through Hurricane Katrina and then Hurricane Wilma within a month, I believe it was.

The day Hurricane Katrina hit us directly I was working at a local Burger King temporarily. The owner of that particular fast food spot thought the storm was entering more up north in West Palm Beach and we were only going to get the bands. Boy was he wrong. We stayed working until the eye was right over us and then we were sent home...only...I didn't know we were in the eye so me and a fellow co-worker decided to go to a dunkin doughnuts. While eating I received a call from my little brother in law warning us to get home quick because we were in the eye. As we were getting in our car it literally came out of nowhere as if someone turned on a switch. What began as a light drizzle turned into a hellish nightmare. One by one all the transformers in the area started to overload and you could see the strange eerie blue lights in the sky and then...pitch black. All you could hear was the loud roar of the wind and couldn't see your hand in front of your face how heavy the rain was. I don't know if I could say God was watching over me that night or if it was just luck but a huge palm tree fell within inches of my door. How the wind didn't pick up enough to blow it on my car with us in it is beyond me. We decided to drive home...very slowly since my breaks were barely working. Along the way we had to stop several times to help out a few people who were also unfortunate to be caught outside after the eye passed. One guy drove his car over a medium and couldn't get out so I pushed his car with my truck. Another guy had a similar problem but it was a big tree trunk instead. Then we found a car that was completely totalled in the middle of an intersection and we HAD to stop to see if anyone was hurt but we couldn't see so we reluctantly kept on. The rest of the way was pretty much incident free but still scary as hell. I kept half expecting to hear the sound of a train that you supposedly hear when a tornado is near but thankfully there was none...that I know of.

It was quite an experience....that I don't care to go through again. Here's hoping that we go incident free with Hurricane Ernesto.

80's Rock Sundays!!

2006-08-27T02:49:00.000-04:00

I borrowed this idea from a fellow blogger, mindtwister, do take the time to pay him a visit.

This first video is from one of the biggest names in Rock and Roll history, Van Halen-Love Walks In. This is my favorite song from Van Halen live from their 5150 tour concert video "Live without a net".

I know most of you liked David Lee Roth best, yes he was more of showman but Sammy Hagar is a better singer and human being from the sounds of most people who have met Roth. I had a chance to see Van Halen reunited with Hagar in 2004 and I have to say I was literally in tears for a chunk of the show especially when they played this song as well as Right Now. They were tight and didn't miss a beat or a note.

Miami Seaquarium

2006-08-24T23:38:00.000-04:00

This Saturday that just past I took my family to the Miami Seaquarium. It was more of a present for my daughter for being such a good girl her first week of school. The day started a little slow, went to eat breakfast at McDonalds but took a while because it was jammed packed with people trying to get breakfast before 10:30, long trip through expressways and same old people driving like maniacs, but once we finally got there it was all downhill.

We started our day with looking at some dolphins underwater and the marine tanks. We saw one tank that had most of the fish from Finding Nemo. We saw Marlin & Nemo, Dory, Bloat, Peaches, Jacques, Bubbles. It was really cool to be able to see the dolphins swimming around underwater especially a recently born dolphin. He was quite playful and doing more twists and turns that the other dolphins.

After that we saw most of the shows. First was the sealions show. It's amazing how quick and swift they are in water and on wetland. Ww got to see someone feeding the sharks and answer some questions about their diet and feeding habits. They tend to rather eat a fish that's either dead or sick as opposed to a healthy live one. We also learned they actually don't particularly like humans and the reason for most of the attacks we've seen in the news over the years is mainly because they were startled and felt obligated to defend themselves. We didn't get to enjoy the dolphin show as much because our little one was getting a bit restless by that time and didn't want to sit still for the whole show so we took a break to get something to eat/drink and relax. We got to see a local celebrity, Lolita the killer whale, splashing a HUGE amount of freezing salt water on the first 4-6 rows. We ended the day seeing the sealion show once more to get a chance to take a picture with one of the sealions.

Rocky Balboa statue

2006-08-24T23:10:00.000-04:00

Ever since the early 80's after Rocky III came out Art Museum Officians and members of the city Art Commission have argued that the famous statue, erected at the foot of the those famous steps, was not art but simply a movie prop and deemed it not worthy enough to be in it's original position. So for many years the statue moved from being in front of a local stadium, then moved to the Wachovia Center to end up in it's final resting place, a local storage building. Of course it was moved back to it's original spot during the making of Rocky V but again went back to storage.

In light of the recent completion of the movie Rocky Balboa, the final installment of the Rocky series, many fans, local politicians and Sylvester Stallone himself have been rooting for the statue to be placed back to the Philadelphia Museum of Art. Those on the museum board were against it.

Well, it seems that a compromise has been made and the statue will earn a spot somewhere near-by the museum. I guess it's better than nothing but personally, I think it should go on the foot of the 72-step staircase. From what I read a lot of people have specifically gone to Philly to see the famous statue only to find after sprinting those long stairs....no statue. The Rocky statue is as much a part of Philadelphia as are cheese steaks, the liberty bell, and the Mummers Parade.

Creepy footage

2006-08-22T22:59:00.000-04:00

I found this Blair Witch-esque amateur video about 2 guys and a girl who are lost somewhere in Portugal. Along the way they pick up a female hitch-hiker. She begins acting a bit strange the rest of the way and the ending is creepy as heck. Real or fake? You decide

World Trade Center review

2006-08-21T02:05:00.000-04:00

I saw it a few days ago but was a bit busy with work and going through a wonderful process that is my child's first few days of school. I am here now and wanted to share my experience watching this movie.

Synopsis
The movie is inspired by the true story of two Port Authority police officers John McLoughlin and Will Jimeno. On September 11, 2001 American Airlines Flight 11 was hijacked while still in the air and used as a weapon against against the North Tower of New York City's World Trade Center. McLoughlin and Jimeno were part of a rescue team that were among the first on the scene and start preparing to enter North Tower, unaware that United Airlines Flight 175 had hit the South Tower as well. With a small group of others they rush inside the burning building.

This is a well made movie as well as a tear-jerker. It is not the typical Oliver Stone movie which usually plays off the conspiracy theories like "JFK". Do not expect a movie that shows the hows and whys of what happened. It's more of an isolating storyline based on the two courageous Police Officers that were trapped under the rubble and what their families go through not knowing whether they're dead or alive. There is a particular heart wrenching moment when the wife of Will Jimeno askes her father "How do I tell my child her father is gone?" Being a father myself I have a real soft spot to situations in movies where children lose their mother and/or father so needless to say I was choked up for most of the movie.
I'm glad they released this movie. I was growing tired of the few hollywood execs that decided on digitally removing the World Trade Center towers from movies and shows. Whether or not this country wants to forgive those that trespass against us is entirely up to them but I don't see why we want to forget. Whether it was by the hands of terrorists or as some consipracy theorists say in the hands of certain powerful people in our government we just have to make sure that it never happens again.
I kept thinking about this song while typing this. Thought I would slap it on here.

Orly's Rant: Episode I

2006-08-21T00:58:00.000-04:00

You know, I've seen this cartoon on the internet about a squirrel ranting about certain things and people and events that he has an issue with and I got inspired to do the same so here goes...
I wish I could say there are certain people in Miami I just can't stand but I'd be lying to you. Everyday from the moment I leave my home to the moment I return home I would have contact with literally hundreds of stupid, annoying and unintelligent people. Like women in general here in Miami. If you have this same problem where you live then that's a scary thought that's it's not isolated to one place. Anytime I drive in this city it's like taking a bargain with my life...especially with these women that drive HUGE SUVs while talking on their cell phone. This is just an accident waiting to happen. You seem them swirving from left to right in their lines and it's a surprise there aren't more accidents. I mean really...most women...I said most, not all....but most women can't drive for $hit. Now let's throw a Land Rover or God forbid a Hummer with a cell phone in the mix. That's a recipe for disaster. Unless there is someone dying or dead there is no reason you need to be on a cell phone so hang it up, you self-important ass.
Speaking of cell phones, I'm so tired of going to the movie theater and having to listen to about 10-20 cell phones go off durout the entire movie. What makes it worse is when they actually answer and talk in a normal tone or higher. There are signs all over the place that say silence your cell phones or turn your cell phones off. You even see it while you're sitting down waiting for the movie to start. Stop being such a$$holes and turn them off or leave them home. Whatever it is, it can wait.
I've been in retail and customer service for about 6 years and I've worked pretty much all over Miami. Borders Bookstore, Cobb Theater, Blockbuster Video, Mars Music, Sam Ash Music. One thing remains a constant. It is impossible for a customer to return the item they picked up to look at to their original spot. Whether it's something they picked up, looked at it and then put it somewhere else or if they thought they wanted it at first but then changed their mind while they're at some other part of the store and just leave it somewhere random...and when you confront them about this you know what their excuse is? "It's your job to put it back." "If customer's actually put things back where they belong you'd be out of a job." You know what else I could do without? When I'm with a customer I will have a random customer pop in-between me and the customer I'm currently with and ask "Can you help me with something?" When I tell them sure but once I'm finished with the customer I'm helping out, they act surprised. I get that constantly. My favorite is when I'm in my department, which is petcare, I'll be standing at our blue mobile stand where we have all our fish supplies. I'll be testing the water levels, taking out the dead fish, treating certain tanks, wiping the algae off certain tanks and then I'll get a customer and he asks "Is there somebody that can help me out with a fish?" "No sir, I'm just feeding the fish because they looked hungry and no one seemed to look to it...but I did sleep at a Holiday Inn last night."
I would go on about how great it is to drive in Miami but I would be here all night...

Land of Confusion

2006-08-19T02:28:00.000-04:00

I think this song made a whole lot of sense during the 80's regarding the "Second Cold War" and I think it makes a whole lot of sense today with what's going on in the world. Any thoughts? I thought I would refresh everyone's memory with the original version and Disturbed's remake.

Land of Confusion
I must have dreamed a thousand dreams
Been haunted by a million screams
But I can hear the marching feet
They're moving into the street

Now, did you read the news today?
They say the danger has gone away
But I can see the fire's still alight
They're burning into the night

There's too many men, too many people
Making too many problems
And there's not much love to go around
Can't you see this is the land of confusion?

This is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make it a place worth living in

Oh, superman, where are you now?
When everything's gone wrong somehow?
The men of steel, the men of power
Are losing control by the hour

This is the time, this is the place
So we look for the future
But there's not much love to go around
Tell me why this is the land of confusion

This is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make it a place worth living in

I remember long ago
When the sun was shining
And all the stars were bright all through the night
In the wake of this madness, as I held you tight
So long ago

I won't be coming home tonight
My generation will put it right
We're not just making promises
That we know we'll never keep

There's too many men, too many people
Making too many problems
And there's not much love to go round
Can't you see this is the land of confusion?

Now, this is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make it a place worth fighting for

This is the world we live in
And these are the names we're given
Stand up and let's start showing
Just where our lives are going to

Scotland

2006-08-16T22:42:00.000-04:00

My wife and I have always wanted to visit Scotland. Even before we ever met. We've seen many pictures and videos showing the beautiful scenery of Scotland but I'm sure it looks better in person. This video has been the best one showing you all the landscapes and castles. Below I have put a video of Robin Williams' discussing some of the finer points of the Scottish people.

R.I.P. Bruno Kirby

2006-08-16T09:29:00.000-04:00

If you don't already know I'm a huge fan of movies. So I'm constantly online reading up on upcoming movies and actors/actresses. I was sad to learn this morning that Bruno Kirby has passed away from complications related to leukemia, after recently being diagnosed with the disease. Most of you probably remember Kirby as Billy Crystal's best pal in, personally, one of my favorite romantic comedies of all time, When Harry Met Sally or as Robin Williams' strict, yet hilarious nemesis in Good Morning, Vietnam. Here are some other movies he was in:

-City Slickers
-The Freshman
-The Godfather II
-Donnie Brasco

First days of School!!

2006-08-16T09:00:00.000-04:00

Hello all!! Sorry I haven't been on for a bit. First, for the past 2 weeks 2 employees left on vacation where I work so of course all their hours went to us. Secondly, I had something important to post on Monday but as always my in-laws were meddling with our network router and it started malfunctioning so there went the internet for a few days. But I'm back so here goes...

My beautiful 4 year old daughter started her first day of school on Monday. Woke up in the morning and put on Finding Nemo and woke her up. Got her dressed in her school uniform and gave her some breakfast. We tried not to mention that she was going to school all that much that morning as well as the day before sionce she made it a point to let us know that she did not want to go to school. Not sure if this was a great idea but I think regardless of whether we told her or not she would have reacted the same way. Sorry for the dark pic.

Once we got to her school we were off to find her classroom. Once we got there my wife and I felt better because we weren't the only parents whose child was crying because they knew Mommy and Daddy had to go soon. So we let her pick where she wanted to sit and we set her bookbag on her chair. We then walked towards the big carpet that looked like a Monopoly board where all the children were sitting and had her pick a spot and sit.

Finally the bell rang and it was time to go. Easier said than done. We started to slowly walk towards the door but once she noticed she got up and ran towards us crying. She attached herself to my wife's leg and wouldn't let go. Then the teacher walked in and we were able to get her to sit back down on the carpet. The teacher and her assistants were able to get her attention and we were able to walk out of the classroom and proceeded to wait outside for a few minutes just in case. We then heard her scream BLOODY MURDER!! "Mommy? Daddy?" Broke our hearts to hear that but we know it must be done. The last parent to walk out told us she was crying for a few minutes but then once they gave her a book to read and other kids started to talk to her she quickly forgot.

I felt weird all morning being home alone. I usually don't work until the late afternoon so I'm with her all day. I didn't want her to feel alone or abandoned but I would quickly snap out of it and assure myself that she was having fun making new friends and learning new things. Then the afternoon came and me the wife went to pick her up. We were excited...or maybe it was just that we missed her terribly. Not sure. When we got to her classroom she saw us but stayed sitting down. I don't think she wanted to go. She was having fun. Then the teacher said "Autumn, Mommy and Daddy are here. It's time to go." She got up and ran to us with her arms wide open.

Overall it was exciting. The weird thing is I've been waking up in the morning with a smile on my face and ready to take her to school but as anyone who knows me will tell you...I'm not a morning person. Early to me is 9 or 10 a.m. Anything before that is obscene to me. lol. What are your experiences with your child's first day?

2006-08-09T01:02:00.000-04:00

I was feeling a bit lonely these past few days. I don't have any friends. The one I did have is no longer here. The few friends I did have after high school I just don't talk to anymore. It ended as quickly as it began. Out of nowhere a situation was created to be used as an excuse for the end of our friendship and to this day I still don't understand what happened and why.

As far as family goes, blood relatives, I no longer see any of them and don't wish to really. I have my immediate family now, my beautiful wife and daughter and although we had a rough 2 or 3 years we're finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I also have my mother who I am very blessed to have. Unfortunately, my father died over 10 years ago and it makes me sad to think I wasn't able to introduce my wife or beautiful daughter to him when she was born. He's the one person, as strange as this may sound to some people, I wish would have been here today so I could have someone to discuss my recent marital troubles with or seek advice about a certain addiction I had. My two older brothers, Priamo & Pavel, who are there for me even though one of them lives in another state. That's it.

You see, here is the problem I have with my family. They have the tendency to simply sweep things under the carpet when it comes to family problems. That is something I cannot do. Without talking it out, problems tend to keep gnawing away at me and I can't live my life like that. So I either resolve a problem or cut ties with the source of the problems. There was a certain situation a few years back where I was accused of pushing my aunt's husband's mother. I asked my mother she knew the answer to that and she didn't want to go any further and quickly changed the subject. There was also that time I was invited to a Metallica concert, I'm a HUGE almost borderline obsessive fan, in Orlando a few weeks before the concert and a few days before it I received a phone call from my mother telling me I could no longer go for some vague reason. I still don't know who it was that didn't want me to go. Whether my Uncle, cousins, or brother's wife. No one can give me a straight answer and I wish to God they would.

In the end though it doesn't really matter. I have a beautiful healthy daughter who I would do anything for. A beautiful and caring wife that will do anything for me and if one day fails at providing something I can see that she honestly feels bad about it. A great mother and two brothers that are there for me despite anything stupid I may do. Sorry, reading this back, it sounds like I'm rambling on incoherently. Thanks for reading it though.

2006-08-08T04:15:00.000-04:00

This is for my brother, Pavel. He had/has a deep passion for playing drums and I loved watching him play with his bands growing up. I don't know if he's had a chance to watch or listen to one of his favorite bands lately, Dream Theater. This guy is sick on the drums. Oh, a small bonus of an amazing concert I have yet to send you, weenieman. Ladies and gentlemen....MIKE PORTNOY & DREAM THEATER!!

2006-08-08T03:30:00.000-04:00

In-Law jokes

Sorry I haven't been by lately...work has been keeping me busy. I thought I would begin today's entry with some in-law jokes. Those who know me know have heard me share my disdain for my in-laws particularly about my father-in-law so I thought I'd share a few jokes about our beloved in-laws. If you have any jokes of your own or little anecdotes...please, do share.

A man's mother in law just passed away, and his wife and him were talking to the undertaker. The undertaker asked "Do you want your mother to be cremated, buried, or embalmed?" While the wife was thinking, the man said "Do all three---Why take any chances?

I find it interesting that if you rearrange the letters in the word "mother-in-law" you get the words "woman Hitler".

Then there is the joke about the guy who was told by his doctor that he has only 6 months to live. He decides to move in with his mother-in-law, because living with her for 6 months will seem like forever.

"""A woman goes to see Mel Gibson's new movie, The Passion, and is inspired to take her family to Israel to see the places where Jesus lived and died.

While on vacation her mother-in-law dies.

An undertaker in Tel Aviv explains that they can ship the body home to Wisconsin at a cost of $10,000 or the mother-in-law could be buried in Israel for US $500.

Without any hesitation, the woman says "We'll ship her home."

The undertaker asks, "Are you sure? That's an awfully big expense and we can do a very nice burial here."

The woman says, "Look, 2000 years ago they buried a guy here and three days later he rose from the dead. I just can't take that chance.""""

2006-08-02T01:17:00.000-04:00

I just finished saying my farewells to a very good friend of mine, you could say good enough for me to consider him a brother along with my two older brothers, Mark who is going away to the United States Army Reserves. I've only known him since November of last year but he's been there for me and guided me through all my rough times and never passed any judgement like some people I've known. Aside from an unfortunate incident at Petco, I daresay I would trust him with anything including my life. j/k about the Petco thing. I can honestly say that I didn't want him to go especially with everything going on in the world and tried to understand why he was doing it but I realized something. I don't need to understand and he doesn't have to explain anything to me. The only thing I have to do is respect him and his wishes/decisions and be there for him as a friend or a brother. Mark, I got nothing but love for you, bro. What's mine is yours and you don't even have to ask. I've got a shot glass here and a bottle of apple flavored vodka I found so this shot is for you, buddy! SALUD!

2006-08-01T02:46:00.000-04:00

Favorite Movie quotes

The Count of Monte Cristo:
“Life is a storm, my young friend. You will bask in the sunlight one moment, be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes. You must look into that storm and shout as you did in Rome. Do your worst, for I will do mine! Then the fates will know you as we know you: as Albert Mondego, the man!”

Cinderella Man:
“Jesus H. Christ! Jesus Mary and Joseph! All the saints and martyrs and Jesus! Did I mention Jesus?”

Bruce Almighty
“Yes, behind every great man, there’s a woman rolling her eyes, folks.”

We Were Soldiers
“Lt. Colonel Hal Moore: I can hear you laughing you know.
Julie Moore: I'm not laughing, I'm marveling.
Lt. Colonel Hal Moore: At what?
Julie Moore: That you can find stubbornness in your children and think it comes from anywhere but you...”

Boiler Room:
“And there is no such thing as a no sale call. A sale is made on every call you make. Either you sell the client some stock or he sells you a reason he can't. Either way a sale is made, the only question is who is gonna close? You or him? Now be relentless, that's it, I'm done.”

“Anybody who tells you money is the root of all evil doesn't fucking have any.”

“There's an important phrase that we use here, and think it's time that you all learned it. Act as if. You understand what that means? Act as if you are the fucking President of this firm. Act as if you got a 9" cock. Okay? Act as if.”

“I had a very strong work ethic. The problem was my ethics in work.”

Superman/Superman Returns:
“They can be a great people, Kal-El, if they wish to be. They only lack the light to show the way. For this reason above all, their capacity for good, I have sent them you... my only son.”

Interview with the Vampire:
“Evil is a point of view. God kills indiscriminately and so shall we. For no creatures under God are as we are, none so like him as ourselves.”

White Squall:
“You can't run from the wind. You trim your sails, face the music, and keep going.”
White Men Can’t Jump:
“Look man, you can listen to Jimi but you can't hear him. There's a difference man. Just because you’re listening to him doesn't mean you're hearing him.”

The Last Samurai:
“Katsumoto: You believe a man can change his destiny?
Algren: I think a man does what he can, until his destiny is revealed.”

Rocky:
“You're gonna eat lightnin' and you're gonna crap thunder!”

“Women weaken legs!”

Rocky IV:
“Going in one more round when you don't think you can - that's what makes all the difference in your life.”

Rocky Balboa:
“What is it you said to the kid? The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very rough, mean place... and no matter how tough you think you are, it'll always bring you to your knees and keep you there, permanently... if you let it. You or nobody ain't never gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit... it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward... how much you can take, and keep moving forward. If you know what you're worth, go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit.”

Clerks:
“You know, there's a million fine looking women in the world, dude. But they don't all bring you lasagna at work. Most of 'em just cheat on you.”

Mallrats:
“Listen, not a year goes by, not a year, that I don't hear about some escalator accident involving some bastard kid which could have easily been avoided had some parent - I don't care which one - but some parent conditioned him to fear and respect that escalator!”

“You're gonna listen to me? To something I said? Hasn't it become abundantly clear during the tenure of our friendship that I don't know shit?”

Chasing Amy:
“All every woman really wants, be it mother, senator, nun, is some serious deep-dickin'”

The Godfather:
“I'm gonna make him an offer he can't refuse.”

The Punisher:
“In certain extreme situations, the law is inadequate. In order to shame its inadequacy, it is necessary to act outside the law. To pursue natural justice. This is not vengeance. Revenge is not a valid motive, it's an emotional response. No. Not vengeance. Punishment.”

Biloxi Blues:
“You would need three promotions to be an asshole.”

“Once you start compromising your thoughts, you're a candidate for mediocrity.”

Batman Begins:
“It's not who I am underneath, but what I do that defines me.”

There are a lot more but I can't remember them all. I looked throughout my DVD collection, I have almost 700, and this is what I got so far. I'll continue posting as I remember more. Feel free to post some of your own. As you can see, I'm a movie fanatic. One of the greatest things ever invented next to the written word, of course.

2006-07-31T00:06:00.000-04:00

The following are incidents caused by our Senior Citizen community. I used to think that they were isolated incidents here in South Florida but I'm sure the U.S. is covered with them. I will cover this in countdown formation...let me begin:

4.) Most old people here are rude as hell. They'll bump into you or hit you with a shopping cart and won't apologize for it. If you're in a busy store like Walmart, and we all know they're busy 24/7, they try to squeeze in between you and the throng of people there and almost knock my daughter down. WATCH WHERE YOU'RE GOING!!

3.) Having to go after them at the Supermarket line. This happens to me quite often. Most of the time, I mean about 90-95% of the time, I will have only one or two things to buy and one of them will cut me off to the line with their shopping carts filled to the brim. Now, most people, including myself, will allow a person with only 1 or 2 things go ahead of me if I have a filled shopping cart. It's polite. But not the Seniors. Oh, no. They don't have to if they don't want to and they take their sweet time putting the items on the moving counter and paying and asking a million questions. When you see another cashier open their register and yell "Next!" you try to go over there but you've been behind this Senior so long that a line has formed behind you and they'll get there before you. So no matter what, you're screwed and might as well wait.

2.) I've been in retail for many years and have noticed that the elderly are at the top of the list for shop lifting above all others. Just the other day at my job, Petsmart, someone will ask me about a certain accessory that goes with an air pump for their aquarium. When I tell them that by purchasing this particular air pump it already includes the accessory, I come back 5 minutes later and see the air pump box opened and on the floor with the accessory missing. Never fails. Also, I'll see the old couples opening merchandise to look through it and when I go back 5 minutes later a few things will be missing.

1.) Absolutely the worst drivers aross the country coming close to an angry drunk behind the wheel. When they drive, they drive incredibly slow at about 15-20 mph...while practically on top of the wheel. How can they possible drive like that?! I tried it once in my neighborhood. Moved my chair up all the way against the wheel and almost crashed immediately. You have no chance of reacting to something unexpected. What else? They constantly mistake the accelerator pedal for the brake pedal. I'm so tired of hearing about some old person that drove through a business or someone's house, or that particular open market in some small quiet neighborhood. Plowed through I don't know how many people including children for 3 whole blocks. Same excuse. "I thought I was pressing the brake pedal." The worst? A little girl got hit while riding her bicycle....ON THE SIDEWALK!! By none other than one of our beloved senior citizens. I'm sorry...but if I can't drive when I'm old because I can barely see or I can't react quickly enough to divert an accident, then I won't drive. Better than taking a human life.

Sorry, it's just that Miami sucks and it's full of rude, ignorant, beligerent, and greedy people. Can't wait to get the hell out.